The confessions of a Stark | Aemond Targaryen | hotd

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I haven't really written the past few days. I guess I've just been settling in my new, or rather old, life. I could never return to my family. To them I'm a probably a traitor. I will miss them dearly but my home is right here in the Red Keep.

Nothing of import really happened. My morrows start the same and the day ends the same. Breakfast with Alicent and her father and children with the exception of Aegon and supper with Alicent and her father and children. Only supper includes Aegon. He makes lude jests about me and I found it makes me uncomfortable so I started avoiding him.

Aemond had ignored me after our last conversation. He did steal glances of me and pointed smirks at me but he hasn't really spoken much to me. The feeling he gave me still welled up and I have thought about his offer to teach me what exactly this feeling was but I hadn't really made up my mind. Untill yesterday that is. I have decided to have him finally tell me what that bubbly feeling was low in my belly.

After breakfast I went to the library. Usually I would be there first and Aemond would follow not long after I've sat down with a book. This time I was surprised to find Aemond already there. He sat at one of the tables reading.

I made my presence known and I asked what he was reading. He showed that it was 'Tales of Old Valyria'. I smiled and asked why he was reading it since he probably knew the book by heart. "It makes me think of you." he had said and that bubbly feeling welled up again. I had decided right there that I would have him tell me what this feeling was because I wanted to understand it.

"You told me to come find you if I made up my mind wether I wanted to understand the feeling in my belly." I had stated and he raised an eyebrow in surprise. "I did." he said and paused for a second and his face contorted as if he was concocting a plan. "Come see me in my chambers after the evening supper. Oh and be sure to have bathed before you come."

I agreed and left the library to my chambers. My mind spinning with thoughts like what would he teach me and why would I have to bathe for it. I decided to brush my hair to calm myself down and it helped. I then went to the gardens to keep my thoughts off the feeling in my belly until supper.

When supper came I avoided Aemond's gaze. I felt a strong burning on my cheeks every time I saw he looked at me and Aegon picked up on it. He smirked wickedly at me and than shifted his gaze to Aemond with a raised eyebrow and the same wicked smirk which was met with a murderous stare from Aemond. Aegon then whispered something I couldn't hear to Helaena causing her to shoot her face towards me with a small hint of excitement.
I just pricked at my food and slowly ate it as I wasn't really hungry from the nervousness I felt.

When everyone finished their plates I still had a small amount left on my plate and I asked to be excused anyway. I left before Alicent could ask why I hadn't finished my plate after granting me leave from the table.

I went to my chambers and asked my handmaiden to draw me a bath and she obeyed. After a while she came back and told me the bath was ready and escorted me towards the bathing room. She closed the door and helped me out of my dress and I asked her to leave before I took off my undergarments.

I enjoyed the bath very much and I hadn't noticed how much time had passed until my handmaiden knocked and came in to inform me that Aemond had sent for me in his chambers. I had asked her to help me out of the bath and get me dry and dressed to make it go faster. Four hands are faster than two after all.

As I walked to Aemond's chambers that feeling in my belly welled up in anticipation for what's to come. He again was stood facing his lit hearth and ordered the maidens to leave after I was announced.