The confessions of a Stark | Aemond Targaryen | hotd

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Aegon is walking. With strain and pain, but maester Orwyl and Lord Larys are helping.

It was horrible to hear the sounds of his agonizing pain. I really wanted to comfort him as my brother by law but I felt scared. I was afraid that he'd lash out at me like he did when we announced the pregnancy.

I still feel horrible for losing the baby. Like it's my fault. I feel like Aemond resents me for it. Though he's been comforting me and I him through these dark times it feels different. Just thinking about him used to bring me comfort but now...

I want my loving husband. Not this rigid man that barely glances at me outside the walls of our chambers. This war is taking a toll on everybody, I understand that, and taking the responsibility of Prince Regent is not an easy task.

Rhaenyra's blockade is bringing restlessness in the city and I fear rebellion against Aemond is imminent. I feel guilty for having fulfilling meals while they go without.

Perhaps I should rebel from within. Refuse to eat until some of our dragons sheeps go to the smallfolk. We should start our own flock of sheep for our dragons instead of taking them for the good farmers.

Perhaps it wouldn't help at all and only have Aemond more agitated towards me.

I should at least try to convince him to forgive the injustices of his youth. After all, Helaena had once said 'you'll find the wolf capable of taming the dragon'.

Speaking of Helaena; I feel she's doing alright these days. Perhaps I'm wrong but she seems okay.

Only time can tell how all this ends. Yet I still hold fast on the opinion we should yield the throne to Rhaenyra and bring peace over the Realm once again like their father, Viserys The Peaceful. Aegon and Aemond aren't kind or compassionate. Only to themselves or the people they genuinely care about and there's very few of those. Perhaps Rhaenyra will different.

Signed
Lady Y/n of House Targaryen