Chapter 1 ~ Never Give In
What an awful day! The one thing I just want right now, is to disappear from this world. Or just move to another place, where nobody knows me.
I hate everything right now. My family, my “friends”, myself and other things in this world.
My parents have nothing better to do when they come home from work to yell at me without a reason. They´re never satisfied with me, they´re against me. My Mum and Dad see a monster in me. Because I´m listening to Rock-music? Well, there´s nothing wrong with this style. I met cooler people. These people understand how I´m feeling. They understand why I want to be myself. I can call them my friends because they´re listening to me, when I´ve problems and try to help. I really love them.
But well, right now I´m feeling alone. I´m just laying in my bed and I´m crying silently. Nobody hears it. Not even my little 12 year old siblings. They really call me a bitch.
How can I escape from this loneliness? It´s music who´s saving my life again and again. And writing stories? That´s not a hobby, no to me it´s a real passion. It gives me the feeling of freedom and I can create my own perfect world. There I´m feeling better and I can do whatever I want. Shall I call my friend Chan? Maybe she´ll listen to me. To me Chan is like a second Mum. She care about me than my own family. Chan is a great person. She is a huge Black Veil Brides fan like me and we´ve so much in common. The only different thing is, that she is a bit older than me and other BVB fans. But who cares? It doesn´t matter how old she is. I accept her and she accepts me.
So I´m looking for my phone and dial Chan´s number. It rings for a few times.
“Hello?”, she asks.
“Hey Chan, it´s me Nina. Do I disturb you?”, I ask her, while I´m wiping my tears away.
“No, what´s wrong?”
And now I´m beginning to cry again and start to tell her everything what happened today.
Well, what happened?
First I woke up late and was because of this late at school. My teacher told me I´ve go to dentition for one hour after school, then my classmates laughed at me because I´m a clumsy girl. I often forgot things I didn´t have to, like homework, learning for a test and other things. They bullied me again for being different. Yeah I love to wear black, I love to dye my hair red and purple. Why can´t they accept that I´m a human too? And this question I ask Chan after I told her what happened.
“Nina they´re just jealous, because they don´t have their own style. They´re afraid to be different as well. Please don´t forget who you are. You´re Nina. You´re nice, lovely, pretty, polite and most of it you´re yourself and you show it to other people. That makes you strong and it shows that you´re self confident.”, Chan tries to cheer me up. And it works. I can smile again because of her.
“Thanks Chan, you helped me a lot.”, I say to her on the phone and stare at the Black Veil Brides poster on my green wall.
“It´s fine dear. I´m always here for you.”, she says and I can see her smile. I take a deep breath and try to calm down from the sadness.
“You know what tomorrow is.”, Chan questions after a short silence between us.
“Yes, the Black Veil Brides concert.”, I tell her with a big grin on my face.
“Good. I thought you had forgotten that!”, she´s giggling and I open my mouth wide.
“Chan you know that I can´t forget the concert! It´s the only chance to meet my heroes!”, I begin to scream but not to loud because of my parents. It´s almost 10p.m.and they´re sleeping.
That´s my girl. So I´ll pick you up tomorrow at five o´clock. I want to have dinner be,fore the show.”, she means.
“But...wait...I only have the money for the concert. You know my parents don´t give me more.”, I say sadly.
“Don´t worry Nina. I´ll invite you.”, she answers.
“Okay, thanks Chan, for everything you had ever done for me.”
“It´s okay and Nina?”, she says peacefully.
“Yeah?”
“Never Give In.”, Chan tells me. I´ve to smile.
“Never back down.”, I answer and put down the phone. It helped me a lot to talk to someone about my problems. It feels good to have someone, who likes you, accepts you, cares about you and more other positive things. Chan is a real friend, a sister, a second mother for me. I love her and I always will be there for her, when she needs someone one day.
Tomorrow I´ll meet my heroes. I´m so fucking excited because of it. They give me so much power to fight. Andy, Ashley, Jake, Jinxx and C.C.taught me so much in my life.
One thing is to Never Give In.
I put on my headphones and turn up the music.
“I´m a loaded gun
An only son
But I´m Nobody´s Hero
I´ve come undone
I´m on the run
Yeah I´m Nobody´s Hero
Nobody´s Hero”
And with these word I fall asleep with a smile on my face.
