Chapter 6 ~ Ritual
“Rise up and celebrate your life
We´re not alone in our Ritual
Sing for what you feel inside
Becoming one with out Ritual”
Andy stands under the shower and sings this song. Probably to cheer me up. I´m sitting on the bed and stare into the nowhere. To be honest, I feel like a piece of shit. I ruined everything. Because of me, my family is broken. I hate myself. Maybe it´s better to leave this place or hell forever. Nobody needs me here. Suddenly Andy comes out of the bath and I look at him. He has only a towel around his hips. Nothing more.
“Nina, tell me what´s wrong?”, he asks with full of sorrow in his voice. I shake my head and look down at the floor. A tear rolls down my cheek and I start to sniff and to sob. The man with the baby blue eyes sits beside me and hugs me.
“You know, you can tell me everything.”, he whispers.
“I just want to die! I just want to die right now, Andy!”, I burst out in tears and answer loudly. He seems to be shocked. The black-haired vocalist just hugs me tighter, tries to give me the feeling that I´m not alone. Why? Why me?
“I´ve an idea.”, he says. “What if I call the guys and Chan, then we´ll go and have lunch and after it, we´ll talk about how it will go on with you, Nina.
I nod, stand up and look into my bags for something I could war. I just find another BVB T-shirt and red pants. I go with it into the bathroom and change my clothes. I wash my face with cold water, put on some make-up and look into the mirror.
“Maybe it´s a new beginning.”, I say to myself and try to smile. I do my hair quickly and leave the room.
“Are you ready to go?”, Andy asks with a smile on his face, as I enter the little bedroom. I nod and go closer to him.
“You´re a real fan, aren´t you?”, he giggles and point with his finger at my BVB T-shirt.
“Yes I am. You guys mean so much to me. Especially you, Andy.”, I answer and look into his beautiful eyes. Then I hug him softly and close my eyes.
“Than you Andy for everything you´ve done for me.”, I whisper.
“It´s fine, Nina. Come let´s go, the other are waiting for us in the hotellobby.”, he says, grabs my hand and together we leave this room and go downstairs to the lobby, where Chan and the others of the band are standing and wait.
“So any suggestions what we could eat for lunch?”, Jinxx asks with a grin.
“Italian, Asian,... ummm I don´t know.”, Ashley answers.
“Asian Food!”, everybody except me shouts in a choir. Other people in the hotel give us a weird look but we don´t really care.
“Okay then let´s go.”, C.C.says and goes to the door and we all follow him. I´m really hungry, I haven´t eaten anything today.
“Chan? Tell me, how was your night?”, I ask her while we´re going on the street. Chan begins to grin and look at Ashley, who´s going in front of us.
“Uumm how can I explain it? The cowboy and me had a lot of fun last night.”, she giggles.
“A lot of fun? Chan please tell me more.”, I start being curious. Chan smiles and Ashley turn his head to us and his eyes are shining.
“Well, Chan and the cowboy, in a hotelroom, in a bed. Is it enough or have I to explain in more details?§, Ashley answers with the biggest smile on his face I´ve ever seen.
“Oh my god!”, I scream. “You´re not kidding, are you?”
“Why should we, honey?”, Ash says, grabs Chan´s hand and kiss her. “Now we´re the cowgirl and the cowboy!”
That´s really incredible, I can´t believe that Chan probably had the best night ever in her whole life a few hours ago. I look at Andy, who sill holds my hand and it seems that he´s thinking about something. He seems to be upset.
“Is everything alright?”, I ask him but he doesn´t answer me at first.
“Andy? Is everything okay?”, I ask again and bit louder.
“Huh? Oh umm yeah. Sorry I wasn´t here mentally for a moment.”, Andy looks at me.
I nod and we all arrive the restaurant where we want to eat. We sit down at a big table and everyone orders something to eat.
“Chan? You know, we´ve to leave this town in two days. Nina has nothing where she could stay. Can you,-”, Andy starts to speak whle we´re waiting for the food. I sigh and sink into the chair.
“Sure, I can, I mean Nina, this little girl is my little sister. I will take care of her, don´t worry about it, Andy.”, Chan interrupts him with a smile. I look at her and now I really feeling better.
“Thanks. That means a lot to me.”, Andy answers and drinks something from his beer. Then the vocalist looks at me and smiles.
“I will call you everyday. I promise you, Nina.”
I nod with a smile and Andy gives me little sheet of paper. His visitcard.
“And will you take care of my little cowgirl?”, Ash asks with a grin. My cheek are turning into red and it feels like it would burn.
“Of course I will.”, I answer.
