Chapter 3 ~ Rebel Love Song
I´m really excited and I can´t really describe how I´m feeling right now. There´s a roller-coaster in my body. Will they really come? Or are they just kidding with us? I don´t know what to do. One part in me tells me to stay here and wait. The other half is saying that I should go home.
“I think they´re coming.”, Chan grabs my hand and squeeze it softly. I think my heart is going to jump out of my chest the next few moments. And yeah suddenly there are standing two black-haired men in front of us and they´re smiling like idiots. What are Andy and Ashley thinking about us?
“So do you want to go in a bar to drink something?”, Ash suggests and look at Chan with a twinkle in his brown eyes. We both nod and suddenly someone else grabs my hand. I look at a pale skin man, with black hair, baby blue eyes and a perfect smile. He´s so wonderful, just a handsome guy. But why am I hoping? He´s a rockstar, 22 years old and could have every girl he wants. But not me.
I´m only a little 15 year old teenage girl, who adores him to death because of his sexiness and his damn good voice. Keep calm Nina. Andy Biersack just wants to go with you in a bar to have a drink. There´s nothing wrong with it. Become friends and everything´s gonna be alright. Andy holds my hand and together with Chan and Ashley we´re going to a bar.
“How old are you Nina?”, Andy asks with his deep voice as we arrive at a table where we can sit.
“Umm.. I´ll turn 16 on July the 11th.”, I answer while I´m blushing. Andy wides his eyes and stare at me. Then he chuckles. How embarrassing! I´m pretty sure that I´m not his type of girl or women he likes.
“Well to be honest you look older Nina. You look really mature.”, he explains and I can´t stop blushing and look down to the floor. How does he mean that? I can´t explain it to myself.
“Hey look at me. You´re beautiful and I never mind how old you are.”, he whispers while he´s caressing my cheek softly. I smile at him.
“So what do you want to drink?”, he asks me with a bright shining in his eyes.
“Umm I just want a coke please.”, I answer politely. Chan and Ashley are sitting at a table next to us and it seems that they´re flirting.
“Two cokes please.”, Andy orders as the waitress arrives.
“Are you not drinking any alcohol? I mean we´re in a bar. It´s middle of the night and you´re an adult.”, I say to him. Andy stares at me and shakes his head.
“No, not today.”, he answers with a smile. How awkward. Is he doing this because of me? Because I´m a teenager? Oh gosh why?
“ I won´t drink any alcohol today, but is it okay if I smoke?”, he asks and takes out his cigarettes and lighter of his black leather jacket.
“Sure. It´s okay.”, I say shyly and look at him. What should I do now? Should I say anything else? I´ve no experience in having dates with a guy. To be honest it´s my first one. And it´s one with a famous star. I sigh and stare down to the table. I´m playing with my fingers because I´m getting nervous. I never thought that I´ll come in this situation. I look to Chan and Ashley. It really seems that they´re having fun. Chan is more relaxed than me.
“Tell me something about you, Nina.”, Andy says and blows out the smoke.
“What do you want to know?”, I ask silently and look in to his eyes.
“Where do you live? How do you live? Are you going to school? What are your hobbies? Anything you want to tell me, it´s your choice.”, he explains. I take a deep breath and start looking into the nowhere. I can´t tell him about my family, that my parents are yelling at me all the time, that my siblings are calling me a bitch. I can´t tell him that I´ve no friend, except Chan, I can´t tell him that I´m bullied by people. Our drinks arrived I drink some of it, because I´m feeling I´m sweating. I´m getting warm because of this awkwardness.
“I think there´s nothing I can tell you about me, Andy. My life is nothing special.”, I say after a big silence between us.
“Nina”, he grabs my hand, which is laying on the table and is wet because of the sweat. “When there´s something what makes you feeling uncomfortable in my present, please tell me.”, he tries to explain peacefully and it seems he notices what I´m thinking. My hands are beginning to shake and I take again a very deep breath.
“Sorry Andy... I...just have to go outside for a few minutes.”, I stand up and leave the table without any word and so I leave the bar too. I can be proud of myself. I ruined everything! I´m so stupid! Outside I´m sitting down on the footpath and look up into the sky. I can see the stars and the moon. A tear rolls down my cheek. I´m so stupid! I left Andy Biersack, my hero, my saviour alone. How could I? Maybe he thinks right now, that I don´t like him. But that´s not true.
Suddenly I feel that someone puts something around my shoulder. Something war. A leather jacket.
