Chapter 5 ~ Die For You
Was he staying the whole night with me? Was he laying beside me? I open my eyes and look at him. Andy is still sleeping and he looks so sweet. Like a fallen angel. Is he mine angel?
I cuddle up to the black-haired man and enjoy this moment.
“Good morning, love.”, suddenly he whispers but his eyes are still closed.
“Morning, Andy.”, I say, yawn and take a deep breathe to smell his parfume.
“How did you sleep?”, he asks and caress my head.
“I don´t know. Last night, it was hard.”, I sigh and close my eyes again. I remember what happened. I met Andy, told him my story and then I said my Mum that I hate her. It was hard for me that Andy had to see that, but he stayed with me. Other person had left me in that situation.
“Hey it all comes good on day.”, he says and sits up.
“ I hope it.”, I answer.
“I won´t leave you alone, Nina.” These words make my heart beating faster and louder. Has Andy Biersack really said that?
“Are you hungry? We can do breakfast if you want.”, I say after an uncomfortable silence. Andy nods and together we stand up and he puts his pants on.
Then we leave my room and go into the kitchen. What is my mother and family thinking about me now? I think they´ll hate me more than they had till now.
I´m going to the fridge and look what´s inside.
“What do you wa-”, I want to ask but suddenly my Mum comes in and stares at me angryly.
“What are you still doing here?”, she screams at me. I look confused to Andy and can´t believe what she´s saying.
“Go and pack your cases! I don´t want to see you here anymore!”, she continues with yelling at me.
“What?”, Andy and me ask together.
“Haven´t you heard it? Go!”, my mother looks at us. I start getting nervous and Andy puts his arm around me.
“But you can´t kick her out!”, Andy suddenly says and I look up to him.
“Of course I can. I´m her “mother” I can do whatever I want. And now she has to go!”, she yells really angry and tears roll down my face. I never wanted that it will end like this.
“She´s right. I don´t belong here anymore. I never did!”, I shout, leave the kitchen and go into my room. There I start to pack my bags with the most important things I need. Andy enters the room too and looks at me worried.
“Where do you want to go now?”, he asks sadly.
“I don´t know. To a place where I belong, where people love and accept me.”, I say and wipe my tears away. Andy hugs me tightly and I sob. He caress through my hair and I can hear him sniffing.
“ We will stay here for the next three days. Then we´ll continue our tour. For that time you can stay with me at the hotel, if you want.”, he suggests and I nod. I just want to leave this hell forever. I don´t want to stay, I want to go away.
I take my cases with Andy´s help and then we leave the apartment without any word.
And now I´ve nothing, only Andy, Chan and myself. I´ve no home, nothing to eat. Andy and me are sitting on a park bench and I look down to the ground.
“I´ll the others and they´ll pick us up, okay?”, Andy says and I can´t answer nothing, I just nod silently.
I donß´t know how much time passes but suddenly C.C., Jake, Jinxx, Ashley and Chan are standing in front of me and Andy.
“Nina? What happened?”, Chan asks worried and sits down beside me.
“My mother. She kicked me out.”, I start to cry.
“Oh dear.”, she hugs me and this give me the feeling that I can trust her. I can trust all the persons here.
“Come, we go to the hotel. It´s better than to stand here.”, Jake suggests and smiles.
“We are young and we are strong
Through strengh in self we become
Something more than they can be
This is our Sweet Blasphemy”
“Do you want your own room or is it okay when we share a hotelroom together?”, Andy asks, as we´re standing in his hotelroom.
“Is it okay to share? I don´t want to stay alone.”, I answer silently and sit down on the bed. Andy nods and sit down beside me.
“Everybody left me.”, I sob and lay down my head on his chest.
“No, you´ve Chan, C.C., Ash, Jake, Jinxx and you´ve me, Nina.”, he whispers into my ear. I hug him as tight as I can and I´ve the feeling that I don´t want to loose him. I don´t want that he leaves the town the next days.
“Nina?”
“Yes Andy?”, I look up to him.
“Don´t blame you for anything. You´re perfect and become to me a very important person. I would die for you.”
