Chapter 8 ~ Lost It All
The weeks are over and today I´m going to see Andy again! I´m so excited and Chan will meet Ashley. Andy suggested to make a picnic in a park. Ashley will come to Chan´s house to celebrate his arrival there. I put on my clothes, doing my make-up and my hair and tell Chan that I will go right now.
In the park I see Andy sitting on a big picnic blanket with a big basket and food on it. But I can´t believe my eyes. Who is this person sitting in front of him? And why is this woman kissing Andy?
I run over there and look at them.
“Andy?!”, I ask unsurely and I can feel the tears in my eyes. The vocalist stops kissing the woman and looks at me with widened eyes.
“Nina umm..it´s not what you think.”, he says silently and I look at the woman.
“Who is she?”, I scream at him and a tear rolls down my cheek, Why is this happening? Why is this another girl sitting here and kissing him?
“Not what I think? Andy I saw what you´ve done! It´s enough!”, I yell at him and the woman starts giggling.
“Nina, this is Juliet. An old friend of mine. We...We..just...”, he starts so explain but can´t finish the sentence because I interrupt him.
“And you just kissed each other?”, I ask. That´s not true!
“Nina, please forgive me. It just happened.”, Andy looks at me worried.
“Little girl, realize, you´re too young for my Andy.”, Juliet begins to laugh loudly and evil.
I turn around and run away from them. The man, who was my hero and savior for years cheated at me. He lied to me, he never loved me. Why he hadn´t say the truth? It wouldn´t have hurt me that much if he had said that he doesn´t love me. And now? I find no sense to still be here on this earth. I´ve no one who will be there for me. I´ve no friends and no family. I thought Andy would love me, but he never did. I´m so broken-hearted that I find myself standing on a bridge looking down into the water. My body is shaking with fear but there´s nothing I could do now. When I´m dead, everything would be better. Nobody would miss me.
“Nina! Please! Listen to me.”, somebody suddenly says and grabs my hand. I turn my head around and look into the baby blue eyes of Andy.
“Why should I? Leave me alone!”, I yell and feel weak.
“Nina. No. I´m so sorry. Please forgive me. Juliet suddenly kissed me and it came over me and kissed her back.”, he explains with the sorrow in his voice.
“It came over you? Andy I thought you love me! And now go to your Juliet and leave me alone!”, I start to cry.
“And what will you do now? Kill yourself? Fine!”, he yells at me but then he takes a deep breath and I see a tear rolling down his cheek. “I don´t know how I could live without you, Nina. Yes I kissed Juliet but it has a reason.”, he says silently and looks down to the floor. The black-haired man still holds my hand and my body still shakes.
“What is the reason?”, I ask silently without looking at him.
“The reason why I kissed Juliet is that we were in a relationship a few months ago. She found me today and we´ve talked about the old times we spent together. Then I realized that I miss someone to kiss. I missed you and then suddenly it happened.”, he answers my question. I look at him and can´t say any word. Andy put his hand on my cheek and caress it.
“Nina, please forgive me. I love you. I´m only here for you.”, he whispers and I fall into his arms and begin to cry. Andy lays his arms around my weak body and gives me the feeling of love and trust. Can I really trust him and forgive him? Maybe I should give him a chance and try it again with him. I nod and lay down my head on his chest and feel his heart beating faster.
“I love you too, Andy.”, I sigh and take a very deep breath and to calm down.
“Do you forgive me for the bad mistake I made?”, he asks unsurely. I nod and hug him tightly.
Andy caress my back and gives me a kiss on my forehead.
“I´ve missed you so much Nina.”, he whispers and I look into his eyes deeply. I´ve to smile and the emptiness in my heart starts to fill with love and happiness.
Maybe everything could be better one day, with Andy beside me.
“I´m sorry that I ruined this day. How can I save it though?”, he sighs silently.
“I don´t know.”, I answer him
“Maybe we should go home to Chan.”, he suggests. I nod and together hand in hand we walk back, pack the things and go to Chan´s house where I hear, as we enter the apartment, two people yell at each other. It doesn´t sound very friendly. What happened to them?
“Ashley, you´re such an ass!”, Chan screams.
“But believe me. I haven´t done anything!”, Ashley shouts.
I go into the living room and see my big sister, my best friend crying.
