Yeah no I don't love him anymore
It's not something that happend overnight
It started slowly
And when I realized it it was already to late
But I didn't want to give up
I did not want to give us up
So I pushed against it
I pushed against the fact that i slowly started to stop loving him
But the more I pushed the harder it went
I started to get more irritated and angry at him
Until the words I love you didn't seem truthful anymore
I think that scared me the most
Because once in my life he was everything to me
What scared me even more was that if I stopt loving him maybe I pushed everyone else away to
What if I could never really love someone
Because he once was everything to me and I really couldn't imagine not loving him ever
But now I don't
So what if I never stay in love with anyone
But the scariest part is
What if I never actually loved him
What if I thought that was love but it never really was
Could I ever love someone
Or will I always be that person to never actually love someone
Because once in my life he was everything to me
Once in my life I loved him
But was it really love
