Lee~
I can't believe this is happening to me like what the actual fuck, my body is shaking as I am uncontrollably crying on the floor.
"Lerato open the door please" I hear my mom say from the other side of the door.
Ignore her ignore her
it's been two days and I have not been able to leave my room after locking myself in to dwell in my pain, Nolwazi tried coming over but I couldn't bring myself to looking at her.
The only time I leave my room is at night when I know mom is not around or when she's at work, she's tried to get me to eat food but I can't finish it and I haven't been taking my meds.
"Honey please at least take your meds please, for that just eat a little bit... okay ill leave some food by the door " she begs from outside the door before walking away
I wait for the sound of her car to start and leave before existing my room for the bathroom, I use the bathroom before going back to my room picking up the food and getting in my room.
Staring at the food I feel my stomach growl, I take three bites, not being able to take anymore I get my pills from the tray and place them in hands...
"what's the use I've lost my mind already." I start laughing uncontrollably with tears
"Ohhh she fucked me up good... like with my sister out off all people" I punch the wall feeling rage again.
"Maybe I should go over her parents house and burn it down" I laugh out loud
Well that's not a bad idea... and just like that for the first time in a while that idea made me feel better. I walked down stairs to the garage and found a 2l gas bottle good enough I thought laughing, I grabbed it and made my way to the kitchen to get a lighter yeah "let's go burn down a house" I smile at myself
Walking out my door I bump into Emily who looks like she was about to knock on my door.
"Hey I was just..." she looked at my hands in fear "what's that for"
"It's nothing" I shrugged as I walk past her
"Noooo where you think your going with that" she grabs my arm
I turn around staring at hand then glared at her eyes "you better let go... now" I chuckled darkly
"Don't make me restrain you" she says staring deep into my eyes causing me to laugh
"You restrain me please" I push past her, then I feel the gas bottle being ripped out my hands
"Just because I prefer to never be physical doesn't mean I won't Lerato now please calm down and let's talk this out" she pleads
I relax before trying to get out her grip but she just places the bottle down then drags me inside the house closing door.
"Please lerato its not worth it don't let rage consume you" she hugs me as I try to break out her hold
"Leave me alone Emily!!! Leave me!!!" Tears start streaming down my face as we start wresting , me trying to leave and Emily trying make me stay
"I will never leave you alone forget it" she pulls me to couch where I try pull a fast one on her but she surprisingly picks me up and throws me over shoulders take me up stairs.
Ain't no way this is Emily... I think to myself am I far... gone nahhh, I start kicking but she got me to my room then locking it and throwing the key out the window.
"What the fuck did you do that for" I asked staring at her in disbelief
"I'm sorry I panicked" I she looks outside the window then back at me
"No" she grabs me before I could make a move
"Emily leave me or I'll start fighting you for real" I try pushing her but she hugs me tight and we fall on my bed.
"Lerato please look at me" she says as restraints my arms and straddles my stomach
"It's not worth it... I can't lose you please" I feel her tear fall down on my cheek.
"She did me dirty E she did Me dirty my fucken sister... my fucken sister out off everyone" tears start pouring out again
"She hurt me really bad!!! It fucken hurts" I cry out
"Its okay Lerato let it out" she let's go off my hands and hugs me
"I'm here for you..." she holds Me as all my emotions come flooding in
"I've loved her for years but I thought she didn't like girls... now this... am I the problem... am I not pretty enough" I cry
"No no don't you dare say that your beautiful, breathe taking, stunning don't you every say such about yourself" she grabs my face looking into my soul
We looked eyes for a second and for some reason for the first time ever I realized how captivating Emily's eyes are they have a mix of Grey, green and brown.
Getting lost in her eyes I can't help but to stare at lips too , after a few seconds she look shakes her head like she just gained consciousness then she jumps of me.
"Ahhh I'm so sorry" she backs up bumping into my desk
I just stare at her with my mind and my heart racing all over the place what the fuck...
"Ahhh so mind telling me why you so pissed" she says trying to change the topic
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Teen Fiction"I'm sorry but I don't want to lose you in my life I do love you too but i can't risk losing you" Nolawzi let's her tiers out as A heartbroken Lerato gets her heart ripped out the friend zone has never been so dramatic
