The Great War

V

Explanation for such graphic self-image hatred: She's beginning to be affected by the negative entities she's starting to become aware of.

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I stare at myself in the mirror half naked in just my bra and underwear, disgust clear on my face, "Why would anyone even want this?" I say scowling as I run my fingers down my stomach.

"I'm not pretty. I'm not skinny. I'm ugly..." I whisper to myself as I glare at my reflection with hatred. I shrink back slightly, my eyes welling up with tears again.

"Why? Why would anyone even want you!? anyone could have picked a prettier girl to play with! You're ugly!" I shout at myself in anger as I pick up something off my sink counter throwing it at the mirror causing it to crack and pieces to fall off where it hit.

I inhale sharply, staring at my cracked reflection. A misty person directly behind my reflection. I flinch and look away shaking my head.

"You're a stupid broken girl who can't even get someone to love them." I whisper slamming my hands down around the sink, some glass shards digging into my palms as I continue staring at myself breaking down even more.

"Why...?" I ask covering my face causing what blood was on my hands to smear slightly on my face, I look to the side hearing someone come in, I meet eyes with someone.

"Daph?" I look away from him down to my hands seeing blood leaking from the small cuts the broken glass made.

"What'd you do?" Theo's voice asks, full of concern for me.

I look back up at him, "I don't know." I whisper my voice breaking, my lip trembling as I try not to cry anymore then I already have.

He quickly pulls me into a hug. I slowly hug back, breaking down in his arms. "I'm sorry..." I say my voice is muffled by his shirt.

"Don't be." He moves me back, wiping my tears, "It's okay." He says quietly hugging me again this time for longer, neither of us moving.

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I walk out putting a fake smile on my face clapping my hands together, "Who's ready for some fun?" I had invited the others to come over, I was showering when they arrived.

I believe it was just Lilium, Amber, Theo, and Cammie. We decided to go to the lake since everyone was free today. "So, what're we doing? Driving? Walking?" I ask, looking at Lilium.

"I thought we'd walk, might be relaxing." She says with a small shrug, I smile nodding.

"Walking it is." I say, "Lead the way Madam." She smiles giving me a salute and walks ahead of me.

Theo gets beside me looking down, "Feel better?" He quietly asks me, I look up and nod leaning towards him for comfort.

"Thanks." I mumble,

He nods and gives me a short smile, "Anytime."

I give him a real genuine smile grabbing his hand and focusing back on Lilium.

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I sit down on a rock watching some people strip their clothes into the swimsuits they had underneath. I couldn't do it myself. So, I decided to sit on a rock like a weirdo.

"Daph! You gonna sit and be boring or are you gonna have some fun?" Lilium askes pulling me up off the rock I was on.

I whine pulling away from her, "Noo, Lils, I don't want to."

She shakes her head, "Nonsense lets go off with the shirt!" She says snickering as she tugs on my baggy t-shirt.

"Fine." I mumble pulling off my shirt and unzipping my shorts, taking them off as well.