Aya
I was finally done with my finals exam I felt like a weight had been pull of me
Me and my mom were going to get boba after we headed to the masjid there was an event of being the best muslim you can be as the topic of the event
I was volunteering so I came earlier so we could debreif ,my job was to hand out like all the resources so I needed to go get them from the office
I had to go down to the basement to get notepads and pens for the people coming to the event it was a bit dark so I had to turn on my flash light
I whispered Bismillah before going in it was so scary , i saw the notepads then I went to grab them
I heard a sound and I screamed and it was zayan he was laughing so hard I'd never seen him laugh before he had this glow to his face when he did I was obviously still in shock
"Oh my you scared me do you think this funny"
zayan stopped laughing and said he was sorry he didn't mean to scare me he saw I was struggling carrying the notepad so he helped me
We had to walk through another path because they were obstructions in the other way
"So how is your mom" Zayan asked I told him she was fine he tried to have a conversation with me but it seemed he was nervous
Because I acted like I was uninterested I didn't mean to , i didn't know how I was feeling I had a tiny crush on him and I knew it was wrong to engage in haram relationship but evryti me I had this insecure little thought in my head that I wasn't good enough since I was teenager the thought of a guy liking me was just non existent
"Are you okay?" Zayan stopped me from my thoughts i looked at him "yeah I am"(obviously wasn't but he didn't need to know that )
We walked for a while before we reached the masjid we parted ways and I handed out the notepad and pens soon it was time for the talk I felt bad cramps so I just knew my period started I left the masjid I was really sad I couldn't listen to the talk but I could always watch it on YouTube
The house was really quiet I loved when it was like that took a very long shower and snuggled up in my blanket and started reading my new book it was very peaceful and nice
took a pic of course cuz it looked aesthetic I posted it on my private Insta I loved my finsta then I got tired of reading so I switched to my main account to declutter
A message request popped up and the username was zayan he asked if I was okay because I didn't seem fine and he did not see me in the masjid during the talk honestly I was to shocked to answer
why would he ask surely he must have cared about me ?i sent a dm back saying I was fine and thanks for asking I didn't know how to feel about this men will always be men some just do all this to get you to like them then become a whole different thing after
I made a silent prayer in my mind for Allah to keep me on the straight path and continued reading my book I honestly could care less about men at this point in my life I just needed to focus on being the best version of myself and Allah would place the right man for me when it was time
I ended my night with chamomile tea and Surah Baqarah in the background .
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Hi guys I know I haven't updated in a while guess why writers blockkkk !!! I have really nice ideas on story is just that I don't know how to write a book oh boy did I think it was easy anyways thanks to the 54 readers I love you all smmm 🤍🤍🤍😇
