Random Oneshots

monday july 29th 2024

I woke up today just existing, I didn't feel anything. Thoughts of a bloodied wrist would show but I ignored them.

My hands holding the broom like you'd hold a man's private part. I paused and took my hands off the broom. Holding it so gently, so disgustingly.

I puta hoodie on and walked out into the rain to my car. Listening to the pounding tof the rain on the roof. Wanting to take a nap but it's mid summer, it's too hot.

People try to start a conversation with me but I bearly reply, when I do it's small whispers.

I go to my room with my puller pork sandwich and turn on Sam and colby. Wishing for some comfort, I pause on a silly expression colby is making and just stare at him.

I want more comfort, I grab my number one most favorite stuffed animal of all time. It's not enough, I start picturing myself hugging remus lupin from harry potter, imagining his scent and his soft sweaters.

I cry, not knowing why. I just wish for comfort.

I fall asleep wishing to be held by my favorite characters. I imagine the Wizarding world but it's hard to imagine being held by a whole world when you wish you existed there without any issues.

Shifting pops into my head space but what the point when I won't remember it.

Bloodied wrists once again pop up in my head.

'Maybe I'll be put there instead'

I get up, looking frantically for one thing just one small thing, it'll change my life. I stop,

'What am I doing? I can't leave mom.'

I sit back down on my bed, looking and feeling lost. I'm just drifting Into a void today.

I wish all my comforts where real. I wish I could escape to the Wizarding world, my one true home.

I wish I was okay.