The Clandestine Us

Seven

⋆˖˚Jungkook's POV .𖥔 ݁ ˖

I didn't know where I went wrong. We were okay, happy, and I thought I was slowly getting better at proving myself to her. I never did anything wrong. I respected her so much that even when she wasn't around, I avoided everything that might cause her to overthink.

"You sure you want to make changes to your tattoo?" my new tattoo artist asked, bringing me back to reality.

I was in his shop, trying to cover some parts of my tattoos that I had grown not fond of.

"Yes, I want to cover them with new ones," I answered.

I showed him my sketch of the designs I wanted, and he was going to modify, enhance, and apply his expertise to make it more artistic and creative.

I've been busy working out, getting my tattoos done, attending events and photo shoots, making guest appearances, writing lyrics, attending dance practices, creating content, live streaming on Weverse, hanging out with the 97-liners, making more memories with my members, attending award shows, and a lot more, but I don't remember doing anything to upset her.

Actually, my members and I noticed that they have been trying to avoid hanging out with us these past few months. We tried to reach out, but only Jennie, whom I never stopped bothering, responded to me. Jimin said he's still in contact with all of them except Lisa. The rest of us only get occasional greetings or messages from them when we achieve something or receive an award, except for Jisoo, who continue to communicate and get in touch with us. The members are cool with it since they know how hard and busy we get every time we're working on an album. Taehyung is bragging that he's still in contact with all of them; they even go out sometimes when they're out of the country, which really annoys me.

I can't help but frown when I remember what happened at one of the music award shows that Blackpink and we attended before they started doing what they're doing now. We were seated in the same area, though we were in front of them. Jennie performed her solo, but our managers reminded us that we couldn't show our support since she gets hate every time we do. I simply watched her and enjoyed her performance. Even to Jisoo, Lisa, and Rosé, we didn't talk at all to avoid rumors and to protect them from the random hate we couldn't understand.

When the show ended, I tried to ask Jennie if they were going to the after-party, but she said no and that they already had plans for the rest of the night. We ended up attending the after-party and leaving early because we were all tired from performing and confused about what had just happened.

Women are really unpredictable, but they make things better.

It's also been months since I last saw Jennie. She's been making excuses for me not to show up at her workplaces. I used to visit her every chance I got, but now, she seldom responds to my messages. I understand she's always out of the country doing her things, but it also feels like she's pushing me away.

Still, I've made up my mind that I'm not going to give up on her unless she says so. I'll do good, I'll be better, just so I can hear her say 'yes.'

I'm also losing my mind thinking that someone might steal her away from me. I've also heard from Mingyu that some people he knows are also trying their shot with Jennie, but I'm the only one she entertains. But how can I be confident with the situation we have now?

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Weeks after getting my tattoo done, I visited all of my members to show them my now fully healed tattoo.

We were busy with our own schedules: some continued working, some were enjoying their free time like me, and some had activities to attend. However, unlike before, we are now much more relaxed than during our previous packed schedules.