Eternally Yours

Chapter 32: In the Dark

Hey, this is your author here. I am apologizing to you all for this delay. I was so tired with arranging my college stuffs, the practicals and the mid semesters, i really couldn't save up my energy to put into this effective art. 

Sorry, my dear readers. Many of you asked me about the updates. I'm really really sorry for the delay. I'll try to give an update every week. I'll surely try to arrange everything. I promise.

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NOTE: This chapter is somewhat a beginning of the turmoil you find in their relationship in the present time, a few chapters back. AND- *evil smile* you all can't even imagine what two bombs I'm going to explode in the later part of the story, BUT BUT, this chapter, YES, you heard it right, this chapter has a few- ahem, that can confuse you to think what the two bombs might be. But that's only when you understand the hints, ahemmm.

One year of my postgraduate was passing very quickly. But recently, I had a strange feeling that was troubling my mind a lot.

Since a few months, I found Abhi a little distant from me. He was not being himself most of the times. Even if I stayed in his embrace, it felt as if I missed his warmth. His eyes lost the shine it always had no matter what the circumstances were. He always seemed retracted and tired which left me worried for him. I asked him frequently if something was bothering him, he could share it with me. But he just shook his head saying nothing and would again return to his little retracted bubble.

I noticed the visible, declining condition of his health, but whenever I pointed it out to him, he would either say it was for stress or he would leave me unanswered. This behaviour of him occurred frequently as days passed and we would end up in a cold fight.

The man I never found getting irritated, suddenly started getting disturbed even at the simplest talks. I tried to make him understand that all I wanted was him to stay sound and happy. But he showed no reaction to my words.

The cold fights we had sometimes disheartened me a lot, although at last, he would always come back for asking apologies.

I just wanted to know what the reason could be that made his mind so occupied and absent-minded. But he once harshly replied, his voice laced with irritation, "Why don't you just get that there is nothing serious that's going on in my life and it's just the academic and work stress? So, don't nag, Esha and stop worrying about me for no reason."

I looked at him shocked, as my heart shattered into million pieces hearing his words. I gulped down the painful lump in my throat while my eyes were blurred with tears. But I tried my best to fight back from breaking down in front of him. I wondered what made him behave like this, but I was also determined that I would not let him see that I was hurt. I was tired with his cold behavior, and I wanted its end for once and all.

I refrained from showing him my feelings and went away. Later, he apologized to me several times and like every time, I forgave him.

"Abhi, this is not something funny. I'm noticing the change in you; you are getting thinner day by day. Do have your meals at regular intervals and- if there is something that is bothering you, share it with me, Abhi. I promise I won't judge you, rather I would try to help you as much as possible. Remember, you are not alone in this battle of life. You have your family, me and your Lord. So, keeping things to yourself won't help you anyhow, hm? Do you understand what I'm saying?" I asked him softly. He said nothing, just kept gazing at me and then suddenly, he took me in a bone-crashing hug.

The void in my heart seemed to be filled with the warmth of the love I received from him as he spoke, "How did I become so lucky to get you in my life, Esha? You are really my angel, Esha. I love you so much. I'm sorry, baby for being like that with you for no reason. I really didn't ever intend to hurt you like that. Forgive me, will you? I just need-some time."