𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐓: 𝐀 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐐𝐮𝐫'𝐚𝐧

chapter 29

He hadn’t come home all night, and she lay on the bed, blankly staring at the ceiling. Suddenly, a thought crossed her mind, and she checked the time: it was 3 AM. Slowly, she got up, feeling weak from crying. She moved toward the bathroom to perform wudu, and afterward, she took out her prayer mat, placing it on the floor. After donning her hijab, she began to pray Tahajjud.

Making the intention, she said, “Allahu Akbar,” folding her hands over her chest. In a moment, tears began to flow from her eyes. As she bowed in ruku, tears fell onto the mat, but her face remained calm, like a serene sea. Raising her head, she stood again and directly went into sujood. Tears continued to stream down her face as she rose to perform her second sujood. After getting up, she folded her arms once more and recited surahs. During ruku, her tears fell on the prayer mat again. Standing up, she went into sujood again, raising her head while keeping her lips sealed and eyes speaking volumes. She sat down afterward and completed her salaam, her tears still flowing, her eyes puffy and red. She began to blankly stare at the prayer mat.

“Ya Allah, this girl is barren,” her heart cried.

Tears erupted from her eyes again.

“Divorce her, Ashar,” she heard in her mind.

A sob escaped from her mouth.

“She is not capable of being our daughter-in-law.”

Her patience reached its limit, and she placed her head back on the prayer mat, crying heavily.

“T-their words h-hurt me, A-Allah!” she said, her lips trembling as she shuddered from sobbing so much.

"W-what if h-he gave m-me a divorce, ya Rab? Please, my parents won’t be able to bear this! Please have some mercy, ya Rab! Your servant is in pain. Will you not help me, ya Ar-Raheem?" Her voice quivered, and her mind swam with negative thoughts.

“Allah, do not burden a soul beyond what it can bear,” her heart cried out. Perhaps this was a response from her Lord. She smiled through her pain, feeling assured that He was listening to her. Knowing that her Rab was listening was more comforting than anything else.

Without saying another word, she continued to cry. It is said that Tahajjud is the prayer when a servant can ask for anything, and Allah (SWT) will grant it. Yet sometimes, during Tahajjud, words fall short of expressing what the heart longs for; it's often the tears that speak.

Time passed, and she lost track of when she fell asleep in that position. Sometimes, in pain, a servant feels their Rab comforting them in sujood, and that is what she experienced before succumbing to sleep after speaking with her Creator.

After an hour, her eyes abruptly opened as though someone was gently awakening her. Blinking awake, she looked around the room but saw no one there. Her gaze landed on the clock, which showed it was 5 AM. Realizing it was time for Fajr, she quickly got up, went into the bathroom, and performed her Fajr prayer.

Afterward, her heart yearned to recite the best book in the world and beyond. She retrieved her Qur'an and opened Surah Yaseen. With a smile, she recited, having memorized the Qur'an, so she understood the words without needing translation. She felt fortunate reading the divine words that directly came from her Rab; they were His language, His words. She appreciated the mercy of having memorized the Qur'an.

Feeling grateful, she finished her prayer, folded the prayer mat, and placed it aside. Removing her hijab, she entered the bathroom for a refreshing start to her day. As she went downstairs, she was greeted by the sounds of dishes clattering in the kitchen, sparking her curiosity. She approached the kitchen with slow steps, finding Seher sitting on the counter, cutting fruit.