The Help

The Talk

Alexis' POV
I paced back and forth in my room, burning holes into my lovely plush carpet. Why did I kiss him lie that. This just complicates things more.
"UGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I yelled throwing a pillow at the wall and falling onto the floor pulling my knees into my chest. I don't know if what I'm feeling is passion or just lust. I felt someone sit down next to me. It was most likely Blair.

"Hey." Yep. It was Balir. And right now I want to choke her but at the same time thank her.
"Hi." I mumbled.

"You okay?"

"Am I okay Blair? Hmmmm, let's see. I just made out with my crush, whom I hardly know by the way. Making my situation a little mor complicated than you could ever know. So I don't know Blair. Tell me if I'm okay or not." I snapped at her.

"Sorry. I know it's our fault. We didn't mean for that to happen. I mean we didn't think you guys would stick you tongues down each other's throats. Twice."

"You say we but I don't know you are talking about and Michael or you, Michael and Calum." I said glaring at her slightly.

She hung her head and mumbled, "I think you're blaming me. Please tell me I'm wrong."

"I'm not blaming you per say. But ever since I met you my life has gotten a bit more complicated. I had to fake being a lesbian, I met Ashton, I told my dad I was actually a lesbian fortunately he didn't believe me. And to top it all off. I MADE OUT WITH MY CRUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!. Now I don't know if he likes me or if it's just purely lust." I rambled.

"Oh. Okay." I could hear her face fall. "Umm. I was just wondering if you were okay. But I now see that I should've sent someone to check on you like your best friend."
I just stayed silent, knowing I had hurt her feelings.

"Excuse me." Blair said before getting up and walking out of my rom and slamming the door. I groan before falling over, my face in the carpet trying to suffocate my problems. I heard the door open.

"Go away." I said but it was probably muffled. " I just want to be alone, and die in my sorrows." I said thinking it was Micheal.

"Was kissing me that bad?"

I jumped at the sound of his voice. Sure enough it was him. The sandy brown, curly haired cutie that I liked. Yup I liked him. It wasn't just lust, I liked him.

"No! No you were amazing actually." I said blushing, and getting up to sit criss-cross apple sauce (don't judge). I looked up from the carpet I was playing with to see Ashton's cherry tomato face.

"Thanks." he said scratching the back of his neck nervously. "Can I sit?" He asked gesturing to the spot next to me.

"Yeah sure. I don't bite."

He laughed lightly before sitting next to me. " So you okay?"

"Yeah of course I'm okay. Why would I not be okay?" I asked getting so many butterflies in my stomach from the thought of him caring for me.

He raised an eyebrow at me. "Really Lex. How are you?" I froze for a a moment excitement shooting through me like electricity from my nickname coming from his lips.

"Honestly. I say before pausing and breathing out. "I don't know what to feel. My life is complicated and no offense you just make my life even more complicated. I like you but I don't even know if you like me or if it's just purely lust. Because that kiss, those kisses out there were amazing, and I don't know what to do and to top it all off I just got into a fight with someone I really care about. AND. I. DONT. KNOW. WHAT. TO. DO." I said rambling and spewing my feelings to someone I really shouldn't be spewing them to. So I shut up and removed my hands from my hair which now all over the place.

"Wow." was all he said.

"I mean you don't have to say anything if you don't want to. It's okay if you don't like me. I mean....." I started but I was cut off by Ashton's lips on mine. My arms automatically went around his neck and my hands entangled in his hair tugging lightly causing him to moan softly. I smirked into the kiss and pulled myself onto his lap. He wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closer. He was about to deepen the kiss when reality hit me. I pulled away, got off his lap and walked to the other side of the room with my hands over my mouth.

"I...I can't. I shouldn't and I can't." I stuttered hugging myself.

"What's wrong?" Ashton asked clearly confused. I mean who wouldn't be. You are kissing someone then all of a sudden the jump off of you like you are on fire or something.

"I hardly know you and yet I'm here kissing you like it's nobody's business. And you probably don't even like me."

Ashton's face fell more. "How could you say that?"

"Say what?"

"That I don't like you?"

"Because I don't know if you like me and besides what we are feeling for each other could just be purely lust."

"But aren't you willing to find out?" Ashton asked. His voice soft and caring. I looked up into those hazel orbs that I've come to love.

"Yeah. I am." I said. Ashton's face broke into a wide smile before leaning in. I put two fingers on his lips to stop him, his face contorted in confusion as a result. "If we are going to start fresh. I think kissing is out of the picture. For now."

"Okay." he said pulling back. "Hi my name is Ashton Fletcher Irwin; and I would love to get to know you. Ash said extending his hand.

"I'm Alexis Elizabeth Lane. And I would love to get to know you too. Fletch." I replied shaking his hand.