My Streetlight

Chapter 3

I make my way outside towards my car that I was gifted for my 16th birthday by my dear older brothers. Snow slowly falls to the ground but barley any snow covers my car. I turn on my car letting it quickly warm up as I wait for Evie to run outside and get in the car.

I cant help but think about my soulmate or my soul-mark. I mean why I wouldn't I. I mean how can I not. What if my soul-mates family don't like me? What if my family doesn't like him? What if my soul-mate hates me? I mean I know soulmates are made for each other but what if some how my soul-mate hates me? And its so hard for me to express myself and its hard to talk about what going on in my mind. I mean my anxiety is always making my mind race. Its some time hard to control my anxiety and...and.....I....I need to stop this...my...my soul-mate what if they hate me if my anxiety ruins our relationship? I...I....need to stop...I need to stop worrying...my anxiety needs to go away by the time I meet my mate. I....I....I.....I should stop worrying for now. I have to stop worrying.

I let out a deep breath as I put my head against the steering wheel. I reach for my phone and turn on spotify and immediately Streetlight by Changbin starts playing throughout the car. As the song slowly plays I cant help but let my mind wonder and go anywhere but as the song is about to end I just let everything go, I put my walls down while the tears start running down my face as Changbin sings his bog heart art. The song starts to change I see Evie run out of her house, towards the car. I quickly wipe away the tears right before she reaches the car.

As she gets into the car a smile appears on her face. "I love this song!" as Christmas Evel by Stray KIds starts playing.

A smile appears on my face, "I know you do dork."

We both starts laughing as I pull out of our houses joint drive away and turn onto the street. I didn't notice until after I started driving away from our houses as I see a mug in the cuphgodler closest to her.

"Oh Ev I forgot to tell you but Simon gave me money to buy coffee and its his treat." I look over at her for a quick seec.

She looks over at me shocked," REALLY you couldn't tell me about that before I made myself coffee" Evie starts laughing.

I shake my head "Sorry I forgot" I make a sad face and turn over back to the road. Oops I definitely had other things on my mind but she doesn't need to know that. .

The drive to get coffee was quiet since its only a few minute drive from the house plus Stray Kids music was blasting from the car speakers. We both got whatever the most popular holiday coffee they had and a few bacon, cheese and egg sandwiches.

Right as I turn out of the drive through, Evie screams from beside me. "Oh my lee know GIRL STRAY KIDS ARE PREFORMING ON ROCKIN NEW YEARS THIS YEAR!"

I turn over at her with shock," wait really are you sure?" I ask not believing the news

"Yes they just announced it" she screams out.

I mean I cant blame her. Stray Kids is the only thing that keeps me going and their music helps my anxiety. I cant wait for their promforance. I wonder what it would be like to meet them. My thoughts are interrupted as Evie screams as S-Class starts playing. I cant but help as I shake my head as she sings along to the song nailing ever lyric as the song plays.

"Hey do you think the members have soulmates or found them" I suddenly ask.

Evie stop singing then starts thinking about what I had just asked. I'm surprised that I even asked that question.

Evie stops thinking. "I mean who knows they hide the sleeves or wither wear makeup to cover their marks . But if they do they probably what to keep it a secret for privacy or something."