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TWENTYTHREE

BEY

I woke up in Onikas bed and immediately felt guilty.

Even though I didn't really do anything, Solana definitely did a lot. I felt bad for even being in that situation.

Maybe I shouldn't have taken home but I couldn't let her kill herself trying to drive home. Then we all would've been in trouble.

I just felt the way I did because I knew Onika wouldn't have liked it at all.

She also wouldn't have liked me leaving, especially after what we did last night, but I felt like I had to. Between this and my other lies, my conscious could barely allow me to be around her.

I grabbed my sweater and off the floor and snuck out of her room. I quietly walked down the stairs and made my way to the door but before I could get there, I heard Onikas mom's voice.

"Ah, Beyoncé! I didn't know you spent the night, come here."

Fuck.

I turned around and almost said it out loud because it wasn't just her, but her husband too. They looked like they were eating breakfast together before he went to work because he was in a suit drinking coffee but she was in her pajamas.

I put on a smile and turned around. "Morning, Ms.Maraj." I walked over and bent down to give her a hug.

"Have you met my husband? I know he's usually at work when you're here."

"No, not really." I respectfully just nodded because I knew he didn't like me. "Nice to meet you sir."

"You too." I could tell he was judging me.

Ms.Maraj must've been able to tell too because she quickly brought my attention back to her. "Have you been getting in the gym with Onika? You look-" She stopped like she didn't want to say the wrong word. "Healthier."

I laughed because I knew exactly what she meant. "No, but I am."

She proudly smiled. "That's good, that's good."

I wasn't sure if Onika told her about my addiction or not, but it seemed like that was what we were talking about.

I nodded. "Yeah, I'm trying." I was really just trying to go before Onika woke up.

"Why are you trying to leave so early? Stay, I was going to make Onika come to Costco with me. You can come too."

I scratched the back of my neck. "I definitely would but I don't have any clothes or my toothbrush, or anything. Maybe next time?"

"Well I need your help carrying stuff because I'm an old lady. I also want to talk to you about something."

Talk to me about something? My anxiety wouldn't let me not find out whatever she was going to tell me.

"Okay, I'll go take a shower and everything then come back."

"Alright, I'll have breakfast ready for you come back."

"You're the best, thank you." I loved her cooking so I wasn't going to turn it down. "I'll be back." I could finally escape leave the house.

Earlier I said my conscience couldn't allow me to be around Onika, but with drugs, I definitely could. 

As soon as I got home, I went straight to my bathroom and got in the shower. I couldn't tell if I was stalking or just taking my time getting reddy but either way, I was taking my time getting ready.

Someone rang the doorbell when I started getting dressed but I heard Snoop go get it so I went back to it.

After only a couple seconds, he was knocking at my door. "Bey, you have a guest."