You Are My Unreachable Grandeur [BL]

Part 6 [End]

21

From that day on, Bao Jian Zhi and I silently stopped contacting each other.

I hold art exhibitions every season.

All the profits from the exhibitions are donated in the name of Bao Jian Zhi.

I want to accumulate more merit for him.

His life has been too harsh.

If there is a next life, I hope he has a better one.

I also constantly monitor him online, careful not to miss a single moment of his life.

I started to love traveling.

In the past, I was too young and couldn't see the beauty of the world, but now I realize it's so wonderful.

In Melbourne, I met Bao Cong An and his partner, Jiang Jin Yan.

It was their fifth year of marriage.

"I thought he would hold you back," said Bao Cong An, who actually resembles his uncle a bit. He is of the cool and detached sort, even more otherworldly than Bao Jian Zhi.

"He shouldn't waste his time on someone like me."

Jiang Sui was right.

Someone like me doesn't really fit into Bao Jian Zhi's world.

His life is like a blank sheet, all highlights, and I am the only stain.

"You underestimate yourself and overestimate him."

"My uncle isn't perfect; he has desires and emotions just like everyone else, he's just too good at disguising them, deceiving everyone."

"You always say it's for his good, that he deserves better."

"But what 'better' means shouldn't be judged by you, it should be his decision."

Bo Cong An rarely spoke so much, even he himself didn't know why.

He just didn't want me to miss out on Bao Jian Zhi.

He talked about his own situation: "Jin Yan and I also missed out on many years."

"He still doesn't know my secret of the white hair."

"I just want him to know the good things, just want him to know that being happy in the moment is what's most important."

"Finding someone who likes you back isn't easy, being together isn't easy, all the supposed fears are just distrust in the relationship."

"When I like someone, I want to overcome all obstacles to be by their side."

"Bao Chen, don't do something you'll regret."

My palms sweated, clenched and unclenched.

Will I regret it?

22

That night, Bao Jian Zhi called from China.

"Ah Chen, I'm getting married."

At that moment, it hurt to breathe, as if I was in an ice cellar.

Regret, so it turns out you really can feel regret.

Luckily, he wasn't there, otherwise, he would see how pathetic I looked.

I secretly wiped away tears and was silent for a long time.

"Congratulations."

"But I didn't want to hear that."

He said, "Will you come with me before dawn?"

I suddenly realized something and turned around abruptly.

He stood there behind me, eyes reddened, as if the blizzard behind him would swallow him whole.

He didn't come closer, his phone to his ear, he whispered, "What's your answer?"

"If you don't want to, just hang up the phone, walk forward, and don't look back."

"If you do, I will come to you." His voice was low and hoarse, trembling.

This was our last chance.

I could hear my own heartbeat clearly.

It was Bao Jian Zhi who brought this heartbeat.

My soul had long been in love with him.

But I always deceived myself, constantly hypnotizing myself that I could let go, that I would eventually let go.

Until that moment earlier, when I heard he was getting married.

How could I easily forget someone I loved so deeply?

"Okay, I will."

I walked towards him.

It wasn't difficult at all, this path, smooth and joyful.

I reached up to brush the snow from his eyelashes.

"Bao Jian Zhi, I love you."

The man took a deep breath, his eyes slowly lighting up with a smile, tears uncontrollably rolling down.

This was the first time I saw him cry.

Love is fragile, it needs two people to firmly strengthen it, but love is also indestructible, making even the proudest person bow their head willingly.

In this chilly weather, Bao Jian Zhi made my face flush.

He said he loved me too.

23

"If I hadn't agreed, would you really have gotten married?"

I couldn't help but ask.

He intertwined his fingers with mine, inseparable.

"No, I would have pursued you properly."

"Wherever you are, that's where I'll be."

I asked, "What about the Bao family?"

"Cong An is there; he has taken over."

He looked down at me and smiled.

"From now on, I belong only to you."

24

Our wedding was on a beautiful beach.

Just the two of us.

When he said "I do."

I found the whole world brightened.

Eight years ago, he suddenly came into my life, bending down to ask me.

"Kid, would you like to come with me?"

Eight years later, he knelt on one knee, his hand trembling as he lifted the ring.

"Ah Chen, will you marry me?"

My eyes were red: "Bao Jian Zhi, after this, will you regret to be tied to someone like me?"

"How could I?" He held my hand tightly, "You are the fortune I was lucky to chase, the person I struggled to win."

"I won't regret it even if I die."

Next to us was the surging sea.

Above us was the sun.

Under our feet was the soft sand.

And we were kissing.