My Mafia Man

11. Fear and Anger ✔

A/N: The song doesn't have much to do with the chapter itself, but i love it. Please listen to it and pay attention to the lyrics!

This chapter is now edited.

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I lean against the doors and sit onto the floor as I sob. I knew it, I knew this would happen sooner or later, I just hoped it would be later. I could hear Luciano talk through the doors, but I couldn't understand what he was saying.

I didn't had to understand it, he was making arrangements for me to be taken away from him. Away from here and away from my life. He will take away what I love, he will take away the friends I have and my mom, he will take away his family from me and he will take away the little bit of freedom I still have. Just because I am a burden to him.

I was shaking, my knees pulled up to my chin and my arms holding them there. I jumped a little when there was a knock on the door. My breath cough up in my lungs as I screwed my eyes shut as tightly as possible.

"Alexa?" Luciano calls from the other side and I start to shake more.

"L-leave m-me a-alone... p-please..." I sob a little and press more against the doors.

"Open the doors, Alexa. We can't talk thought the closed doors." He says and I shake my head, not moving an inch. "Come on, tell me what's wrong at least." He tries again.

"C-can I s-say goodbye t-to some p-people b-before you g-give me t-to S-Sandro?" I ask softly, trying to calm myself down.

"What the hell are you talking about?" I can tell he is mad just by the tone of the voice he used on me.

I pull my knees closer to me. I bite my lip. "I am a burden to you and no one wants me, you said so, you said you can't sell me to anyone... he said he won't mind taking me and that you will give me away without blinking an eye..."

He says something in Italian, some words I never hear, but from the tone of his voice, I can guess they are not very nice words either. "Open the doors, Alexa. I am not having this talk over this god damned doors!" He almost yells at me.

I shake my head quickly. "I'm not coming out!" I yell back. "He said to tell you that he is coming after your friends and family first, he was then planning on taking me, but I said I am not important to you anyway... he said it won't be a problem taking me then. He wants to kill everyone you care about before killing you."

"Get out of there, Alexa!" He growls.

I shake and stand up, unlocking the doors. I open then and look down at the floor. "Please, just let me say goodbye to my mom." I whisper softly, to daring to look up at him.

He growls and grabs my arm rather roughly as he pulls me to the bed and pushes me down onto it. My blood goes cold as I dare to look up at him. He looks like he is ready to kill someone as he is leaning over me.

"You are not saying goodbye to anyone, Alexa." He says, seriously and I clench the bed sheets into my hands. He really hates me than much.