The lost

6

Liz's POV
It's now the sixth day since the failed mission.

I didn't had contact with a human since. No body entered my cell. I didn't get food, so there forced to give me food soon, or else In going to die...

It isn't comfortable in this cell. Why Should it?

The only thing in here is one thin blanket.

Even though I got a blanket, I normally don't use it. I'm only using it to stop bleeding when I'm hurt badly.

Finally the door opens and I see something else as this room.

In the opening of the door are three soldiers. "Stand up and follow me "the guard in the middle says in German. I instantly comply, that's one of the things HYDRA made me do, Let other people think for you. Two soldiers walk behind me and one leads the way.

I also make sure to don't make eye contact as I'm walking through the shallow and dark hallways.

Something I notice, is that something feels off. They seem... afraid. What happened while they isolated me? After some time we enter a conference room.

As soon as I enter the room, they handcuff me. I'm surprised and confused, but I don't show it. What's happening?

Berner sits at the table with a little book in his hand with a page open. "You might ask why all this? You didn't do anything, we know that. but, with the Winter Soldier we took to many risks, so he escaped. We don't want that happen to you too don't we?" he says coldly but this time not in German. No. He speaks Russian. "Задуманное conceived"he says in russian.

A tear escapes my eye. Somehow I'm afraid. I know which Words come next. But It's to late I can't fight.

"Похищенный abducted, Отверженные  Dismayed, Обусловлено  Conditioned, Эксклюзив  Exclusive, один  One, Восемьдесят восемь  eighty-eight, Восемь  eight, мстительный vengeful, Первый first" he says slowly every word, I'm almost not myself anymore. Only the last
word Misses. "без напоминаний  Remorseless" he says, finishing. He lays his book away.

I feel Empty. Like being on the passenger seat, without complaining about were we go. Without an own opinion.

The only thing it does, is making me feeling less guilty about the lives I take and in genarel, all the blood on my hands even if I remember... nothing.

I know I did, things, I don't "want". But at HYDRA you don't have a choice. That's the
only thing I'll never forget, even with all the brainwashing.

"Go back to your cell." The man says, so I do.

There are guards following me everywhere.

Once I'm back at my cell, I just sit against the wall. Looking at the door. I don't have an indication on
how late it is. So the only thing I do is sit. Waiting for...

the unknown.

I don't even think while siting here. It almost feels safe at this exact place. I don't feel like Butterfly's and Unicorn's, No not at all, but I don't feel like the need to kill or survive, that feels great in such situation.

I don't know how long I'm already sitting here, but it's quite a while.

Although I don't think and my mind feels blank. I only wonder, what will happen next and when? Deep down I want to know, but fact is, I can't know. It'll always be an unsolvable riddle that nobody even attempts solving because it's hopeless.