ROSE

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"Breathing is hard. When you cry so much, it makes you realize that breathing is hard."

FLASHBACK

I feel free, a sense of satisfaction. It feels good. For the first time in my life, I feel content.

I never imagined in my wildest dreams that "ACE" would be the one who would make me feel this way. And I am glad its no one else.

It just makes me like him more. I am grateful to him. 

My life sucks, though it doesn't appear to. I have a lot of pressure at school. All my "friends" and teachers hate me for some reason. Most probably because I am poor. But I have never asked anyone for help or money. Hell , I have helped a lot of them.

I have been working in my parent's shop since grade six. For four years, my schedule has been the same. I go to school. Soon after I have to go and work in the shop till late night. I have to give my earnings to my parents. I am fed rarely, or when fed I only get leftovers.

So , I started saving money from tips. I have joined the school through scholarship. It is a very prestigious school full of rich people and that's one thing I am grateful for.

I study everyday, for three hours late at night. I have very little sleep. I am tired of doing this. But I guess I have to go on. Maybe one day, all this would become better. Maybe.

My parents, both don't work. They don't like me that much. They both wanted a boy. They had prayed for a boy for years. But instead they got a girl. I guess they were devastated, especially my father. And my mother, who loved him a lot and supported him even when he was wrong. 

Sometimes , I wish I was never born. People are meant to love and care for each other, without hatred. But, I have been denied that one thing my whole life - "love". And thats messed up. 

I am a very rude and savage person when you are bad to me or try to bully me, But I am a very polite and caring person if you show just 0.001 % of care to me. Cause I am that deprived of it, that I give it a lot so that others don't suffer the same fate as I.

And , I am being bullied everyday. But I don't show it to anyone, cause nobody cares. Moreover if anyone downright insults me to my face, I would definitely shout at their face or beat them, but on the inside I feel bad. I feel sad that people think about me in such a way. 

Cause when a person who just wants to be loved and liked is being dislike by everyone then that stings like a bitch.

It hurts a lot, am serious.

Well , lets see how long I can hold on.

Well , lets see how long I can hold on

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