IF ONLY

ACE

"Love is like war: easy to begin but very hard to stop." 

FLASHBACK

Currently, I am in heaven. No, don't be too happy. I didn't die. I am on Angel's lap. Thats heaven for me.

I woke up to see her face. Do you know how fucking happy I am ? Do you know how much I'd give to wake up and see those eyes , those beautiful blue eyes first thing every morning ?

She has closed her eyes and is slowly running her fingers through my hair. I quickly close my eyes, acting like I am asleep. I want to stay on her lap for some more time. Thankfully she didn't notice me waking up.

I am half convinced that I should kidnap her, take her to an isolated island with a forest just like this and live the rest of our lives together. But my brain , says that that's bullshit.

Just as sweet and caring angel can be, she can be as fiesty and short tempered too. Nothing happens without her consent. And an angry Rose would be as dangerous as jumping into a volcano.

She is a bold, independent woman. An angel to those who are nice to her and a demon to those who do her wrong. She doesn't need me, at all. Hell I am the one who is dependent on her. 

I realized this through an incident that took place in school. I recall that incident, slowly falling into a deep sleep, with a content smile on my face.

That day,

(walking on the corridor)

ROSE : Ace , I am soo bored. I hate school life.

ACE : Me too, Angel.

(Random girl gets pushed to the ground by a boy and a girl)

GREG(The boy) : Look at that babe, a female dog's on the ground. Damn girl, you look ugly af.

REGINA(The girl) :  You sure are brave for ratting us out to the princie. Like fr, were you born in a slum or something. And your face ..... ew. You look as if someone puked on your face.

ROSE : Ace, I know you are bored. So you want to watch a show ?

ACE : Sure Angel.

ROSE : Whatever happens stay right here. Don't move and I repeat do not move , whatever happens there. 

ROSE (Walks up to the couple and that girl) : You idiots sure do enjoy picking on weak girls. And for the record, she looks much much better than you Regina. Like if her face looks like someone has puked on her then yours looks as if your shitface of a boyfriend has crapped on you. You smell and look exactly like that.

REGINA (venemously) : Shut up, Rose. Do not mess with me. Just because you get good grades doesn't mean you can talk to us. Your place is at my feet, poor bitch. 

(Gets slapped hard, by Rose and falls down)

ROSE (with a lot of attitude) : Say that again darling. I dare you.

GREG : You cunt ! (Holds Rose by the shoulder , hard) One more word and I will honestly break that pretty little nose of yours.

ROSE : Good luck with that ugly. (Kicks him between his legs). Come on , Emma . Lets clean you up. Dont listen to these fuckfaced bastards, they are not worth talking to.

EMMA : Thank you so much , Rose.................

Honestly , the moment that guy put his dirty hands on my angel, I was already on my way to beat the shit out of him. But when I saw how my girl kicked him and showed him who's boss,I was the proudest person  alive. I wanted to be that caring boyfriend who protected his girl, but now looking at Rose, I realise how fucking badass, independent and brave she is. She is capable, so capable of ruling this world.

She is caring and cruel at the same time. I have no words to describe how perfect she is. I am so whipped.How did I get so lucky to have her as my girl ?

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 After my secret nap, I woke up to see Angel looking at me.I was shocked. I was so deep in sleep , I still didn't realise that I was on her lap. I forgot about that. I slowly relaxed as I remembered how I had woken up to see her and acted like I was asleep. But I actually fell asleep.

Well , you cant blame me, her lap is very addictive. I smiled as I tucked a strand of her behind her ears. I realise that I am smiling a lot nowadays. 

She looks so beautiful, like an angel, a princess. My princess. I look at her hands, which were rubbing my scalp. They were red.  Scraped. The amount of anger and pleasure I felt when I looked at her hands was undescribable. Anger beacuse no one , NO ONE, has the right to touch her. Pleasure because the way I was going to torture that person was going to be grotesque.

Another emotion I felt was, fear. I am scared , always. I feel that emotion all the time, from when I met my Angel. Fear of losing her. 

She understood my anger. And by the look on her face, I knew this was going to take a long time. Well , more time for me with her. And I had a gut feeling that this was realted to her parents.

If she was hurt anywhere physically or mentally before I met her, I don't think I will be able to control my anger. Even my emotions are under her control.

She started speaking with her eyes slightly wet, And I would be lying if I said that I wasn't angry.

I was ballistic.