IF ONLY

ACE

"If you never heal from what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you." 

FLASHBACK

I can't sleep. I am twisting and turning on bed but no, thats not working. Nor is counting sheep working.  Oh man ! 

I was sleeping on Rose's lap and for the first time in my life I didn't have nightmares. I usually don't go to sleep or I only take 30 minute naps in the middle of the day or something because when I sleep my brain conjures up some shitty dream and that scares me to death. And thats something coming from me , cause I never get scared.

I woke up as soon as Mr.Leo took me to the car. But he had some urgent business, and had to go as soon as he dropped me at my house, so I couldn't even ask him to check on Rose.

I don't know if I am being paranoid but I just have a very uncomfortable feeling in my chest , telling me that Rose is in danger. But Mr.Leo told me that she went back as soon as we left. 

Ugh !! why is my life this fucked up. Damn it !

Anyways I am not getting sleep , I might as well check on Rose, just to be safe.

I took the Bugatti Veyron, it's bright red colour reminds me of Angel.

Shit, I am so whipped aren't I ? Well only for her.

Its currently 12am. I went to her house , but something's wrong. 

Rose always changes the rose.

She always keeps a Rose flower at her window in the morning and removes it at night. No, she never missed it till today.

Am I sounding like a stalker ? Yes

Do you think I care ? No

Where could she be ? Did she not go back home ? I don't want to go and talk to her parents. Though she has told me nothing about them , I can see in her eyes that she hates them.

The eyes that should have been filled with joy and happiness from the beginning are contaminated with pain and I am sure that they are the reason.

I would be damned if I am wrong. So talking to her parents would only trigger the volcano inside me to blow up. I am already short tempered and even thinking about their parents gets me riled up. So if I talk to them , I MAY kill them ,"by mistake of course". So that would be my last resort. 

So where did Rose go ?

I should really start looking for her harder before my intrusive thougts start appearing , I loose my cool and go on a rampage for killing her parents.

Ya sounds like a good plan.

I literally searched the whole town upside down. There's niether a hole nor a street where I haven't looked. Rose where are you ? You are scaring me now. I can't loose you , not you too. You are the only person I have for family. Please don't leave me.................................................

FUCK ! How dumb am  I ? I literally searched all the places where Rose wouldn't go. Of course.

She told me , she always went there when she felt low and I literally looked everywhere except that place. Damn , God kill me pls.

I just hope she's there. Fucking hell, I won't mind tearing off each and every limb of her father if he is responsible for her being out this late at night. I would rather enjoy it.

I reached our place. Its very quiet. I just hope Angel is here.

My eyes immediately soften as I set my eyes on her. My heart instantly relaxes.  I release a breath  I didn't even realize I was holding. That uncomfortable feeling in my chest dissipates .

She manages to look so beautiful without even trying. She looks so peaceful. 

She looks weak though. But I cant bear to wake her up. She looks so vulnerable, so sweet and I wouldn't mind burning the world for her. I couldn't leave her here alone neither could I take her because she may wake up. She told me that she never sleeps and now that I look at her I can see that this is the first time has slept peacefully . 

She has cried herself to sleep. I have no words to describe the anger I feel while looking at her tears. The eyes which I promised myself would have no pain, ar crying. And that person would pay. I will make sure of that. But for now, my main priority is Rose.

Suddenly sleep overcomes me and in a daze I decide to sleep next to Rose. I can see she's a bit uncomfortable.

I gently lift her up , she squirms in my arms but as though she realises who I am , she sighs and snuggles more into my chest , slowly falling back into a deep slumber with a subtle smile on her face, something that wasn't there before.

Her hushed soft breaths against my chest , her hand gripping my t shirt tightly, is eternal bliss. I gently lay down against a tree with her head on my chest , her legs in between mine, my arms circling her waist and her hands around my torso. In that position , I knew that I was the most happiest and blessed man in this fucked up world. It felt like paradise. And I didn't want this night to end , not now not ever.

And in that place under a cherry blossom tree , the serene sound of river water flowing , with my angel on my chest ,I was in the seventh heaven. I had the best sleep of my life that night.