HOPE- ASHA

3: ANGER AND GUILT TRIPS

'Tanu? '

I stepped back as she stepped towards me..

No, no, no... This cannot happen... This cannot be true..

I need to leave..

I cannot stay here..

She was looking shocked, confused and hurt because i stepped back..

I looked around to see everyone giving us confused looks, I looked at Aaron he looked equally confused..

I felt Tanu holding my hand... I cannot fall weak, I reminded myself.

i jerked her hand away and stepped back.

She looked hurt.. but i cannot fall weak...

I turned around to leave the banquet..

The next thing she said stopped me - YOU CANNOT RUN AWAY AGAIN!!

I turned back to see her, anger had replaced the hurt and she was looking furious would be an understatement

I cannot stay here... I will not be able to face them.. I have to run away.. AGAIN..

I turned around and sprinted out of the banquet hall.

Aaron rushed behind me- Aru stop!!

I wanted to stay alone, I am not in the correct state of mind to face him..

So i hid behind a closet, waiting for him to leave.

As his voice subsided, I ran out of the hotel premise, switched off my phone and went to the beach..

Opening my heels, I sat on the sand and a tear escaped my eyes thinking about all the memories we shared...

"Aru- we reached the beach...

T- Yess, catch me if you can...

Aarya and Tanni were running behind each other, giggling and enjoying...

They sat after a while and laughed, they were behaving like crazy people who have fled from mental hospital, but they didn't seem to care...

They were enjoying themselves to the fullest.."

What they did not know was that it will be the last time they are coming together...

I went to a tea stall and asked for a cup of tea, thankfully I always keep some cash in my phone case..

I again sat on the sand, having tea while gazing at the sea...

Dia and Taani, they were not just my friends they were my sisters, Dia being 3 years elder than us was very protective of us... whereas Taani... my Tanu .. though we were of the same age I considered her as my younger sister... my secret keeper, I told her everything except that one thing, that one incident and my real identity... MY PAST- which again pushed Dia and Taani away from me...

The sound of wave was like music to my ears.. i felt like they were trying to console me.. ease the turmoil in my mind..

Once this place was witness to our laughter, our happiness and now it is witnessing the sorrow, the pain and

THE GUILT...

THE GUILT OF RUNNING AWAY..

THE GUILT OF AGAIN RUNNING AWAY TODAY..

THE GUILT OF HURTING TAANI..

THE GUILT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO FACE HER..

THE GUILT.. THIS GUILT... HAS A NEVER ENDING LIST..