the last time i really cried?
all the lights were off, and i couldn't turn them on,
and the house was silent in the middle of the night
all but my cries.
it was traumatic and all i wanted was someone to care,
and someone to be there,
by my side.
and i wanted to call nine-one-one because,
i was losing my mind but no one believed, so i curled up and cried, i cried.
they said "save your soul for jesus." but how can i when i've stopped believing and i'm about to stop breathing?
noah kahan said "don't let this darkness fool you." but how did he not let it fool him,
how did he make it out a better man? it makes me curious...
and i thought my parents would be disappointed if i went to the hospital,
i felt like i needed to because my mental health was...
destroying me within.
two days straight of harm until my body looked broken,
until my cries were so loud it made it so the walls shook,
until my parents suddenly saw everything i thought and how close i was to being the one who took something unspoken...
but dear, i didn't let my thoughts fool me and though it wasn't me, people found those lights...
turned them on.
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||lights turned on|| ~ angel
