Just Friends [EDITED]

005

Yunho 

I was actually surprised that Mingi was actively warming up to Mihi. Sure, I wanted it, but I had fought for it so long that I had accustomed myself to the idea that it was never happening. And now it was...and I was fucking ecstatic. He's been my best friend since we were kids and he was still the most important person in my life. I wanted him to be okay with it, because I still really liked Mihi. 

Him spending a whole day talking to her? 

It was the biggest relief for me. 

In the past, I would always have Mingi's back. And more times than not, if he didn't like the girl I was with, that was reason enough. And then if she didn't like him, that was more than reason enough to end things. And I wanted to have his back this time, but for once I just really wanted him to give one of my girlfriends a chance. When I was younger, it was easier because I didn't think I was that serious in any of them and my first priority had always been Mingi. 

But when I left for college, I had to get used to being without him, and I had to get used to the fact that he might not come here. And even though I had San and I was meeting his friends, I couldn't help feeling lonely. So when Mihi and I hit it off and we starting hanging out more, it helped the anxiety and loneliness from being here. 

I didn't want Mingi to have given up his whole life just to be unhappy here, and for some reason the same girl that had brightened my life, had made him unhappy. 

He didn't seem as uncomfortable around her anymore. And it was great to just have the four of us hang out, or even three of us hang out without the tension. I mean, I knew it could've become awkward. I had a girlfriend and they didn't, and so I had to be extra careful to not do too much PDA. But I wasn't going to be an asshole, I wouldn't make it inappropriate or weird for either of them. 

Hell, it didn't seem like she minded because she was usually just bickering with San. 

Plus she's never been weirded out with my friendship with Mingi, and it was the biggest relief to know I could still be close to him without getting weird looks. 

I wanted this to work out. 

I needed this to work out. 

*** 

Mihi smiled innocently at me. The same innocent smile that a small part of me, always would want to ruin. She was just so fucking stunning and sometimes I couldn't help but wonder what her face would look like- 

Wow...I cut the thought off, knowing she wasn't ready. I didn't want to push her in any direction, and I had no intention of even creating that impression. But I wanted her, and sometimes the thoughts came more frequent. 

There wasn't much of a reason to even think that way around her. And it wasn't because she was too innocent or pure to even comprehend the thoughts, but because I didn't want to bring up anything and feel as though she needed to give in. She had been pressured so many times in the past, and sure, she never really struggled to say no, but some of those times had gotten dangerous for her. 

And I didn't want to entertain or encourage any of those thoughts and make myself grow any more frustrated, because there was no reason to be that way. 

"You're zoning out again." She said, stopping what she was talking about. And instead of getting upset, she simply asked, "What's on your mind?"