ʟᴜsᴛғᴜʟ ᴡʜɪsᴘᴇʀs |(𝟷𝟾+)

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ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴛᴏ ʙʟᴀᴍᴇ

This whole thing is fucking stupid.

Annalise Martin? Even way beyond as stupid can go.

She's just a spoiled girl who has never learned the reality of the world or how to treat a human with some decent curtesy.

Who the hell mocks a deaf person?

It doesn't matter if she didn't know, nobody knows! Who even asks something like that normally?

I didn't bother finishing up her stupid sink, I should've broken a pipe or something. Without telling Reggie of my leaving, I tossed my shit in my car and drove home.

I was pissed. My chest was tight with anger and some other emotion I was trying to hide with anger.

I don't want to unravel the real reason why this bothers me so much. Why I had to ruin it and tell her out of all people.

She had just pissed me off with all that getting in my face and what she was doing over the phone. Who does she think I am thinking I'll even care if she was talking to another guy? I don't.

I don't care about Annalise. I don't care that she looked at me with pure shock or the way she fell silent as she internally fucking objectified me in her head. Fuck everything that has to do with her.

I only offered to help around the house because her mother seemed desperate the way she brought it up, I only came over last night to give Reggie the book we ordered a month ago because I knew how excited he would be. This had nothing to do with her.

I'm just responsible and I'm a good guy, that's it. That's all that says about me. She's even more insane than I thought if she thought in anyway this was all about her. She has guys wrapped around her finger so much she actually started letting it get to her head. It's pathetic.

Fuck her.

Boys followed her around like lost puppies, eager for a glance or a smile. It was infuriating to watch, not because I was above such things, but because I was left out of that circle. Annalise never seemed to notice me, and I had no interest in being one of her admirers.

I shouldn't have allowed myself to speak to her. I don't know what I was expecting out of it. I only let it out because I was mad she kept asking me that dumb stupid fucking question I hated. No one ever had to know.

It wasn't like I was 100% deaf and unable to hear. My hearing has gotten worse in the last few years but I can hear. It's just this stupid right ear, it's broken. I woke up one morning not able to hear anything out of my right ear. The only sounds I heard came out as if I was listening to something under water. I've lost 40% of my hearing out of my right ear in the last year and a half.

I'm aware that's it'll only get worse first than better. I've been aware of that for years now. I know what's to come. If my hearing isn't bad enough now, it will be at one point. That's the Doctors professional guess anyway.

I had to wear this stupid hearing aid. I don't want to have to. It's ugly and looks like shit. All this time nobody knew it was there except the few I did tell, but I knew. I always knew how people would take it if they knew.

I go to a private school full of rich assholes who spend their time making fun of anyone they claim 'losers'. No one had to know. All I had to do was keep to myself for another year.

I would finish high school, move to a different town and start over. No one had to know about the tragedy caused by one accident.

Reggie Martin knew. He was the only one to sign up for my tutoring sessions. He came to me one day asking to teach him the sign language he found fascinating and "cool", as he liked developing new skills.

At the time I knew who his sister was but I didn't think I would interact with her at all. Why would a girl that never even looked at me before, care. I started tutoring Reggie at school before he asked if I can come over his house.

Reggie was a good kid. I'm proud of him for
not following the same tendencies as his sister.

There was a good Martin at the very least.

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Written: 8/ 11/2024