MIRACLE (✔️)

30: Waiting for you

Chapter 30

-Miracle Astor-

It's been three weeks since the last time I saw or heard anything from my Gabriel.

My fear finally came true.

The person who brought me back to life finally left me.

The sixteen years of my life have been filled with nothing but pain and misery. Ever since I was brought into this world, I already experienced loss and hurt. My own brothers hated me. Everywhere I go, whether at home or at school, there was never a safe place for me. Then after what happened with Quinton Peters, I was barely holding onto life anymore. I hated being born, I hated myself, I hated my name, I hated everything about myself. Every time I look in the mirror, I always curse and ridicule myself.

But Gabriel suddenly came and everything changed.

Since the first time I met him, he has saved me and he continued to do so every time without me asking for it.

Even though knowing I'm damaged goods and even after knowing everything about me and my family, he continued to look at me like I'm worth something to be looked at, like I'm the most precious jewel in the world.

He brought out everything in me that I thought was already lost.

He's the first person who made me feel so safe and cared for after dad died. Because of him, I learned to love myself, I learned to love my name, I learned to love being alive.

Gabriel is the only thing in my life I'm tightly holding onto, he's my only hope, my everything.

I love him.

Yes, I finally admitted it now to myself. I love him!

I love Gabriel Di Luca so much. I love everything about him and everything he made me feel.

And now he's gone.

But my heart refused to believe that he's completely gone, that he left me. A huge part of me refused to believe that picture I saw.

I mean, that girl could be anyone to him. His family or friend.

And it didn't tell us anything at all about where he is. I only want to know where he is and if he's safe. I'm so worried. It pains me not knowing where he is, if he's safe or not, if he's coming back or not, and knowing there's absolutely nothing I can do for him.

He's done so much for me.

Maybe all I can do now in exchange is to trust his words and wait for him.

My Gaby told me he will come, he promised me, and my Gaby never breaks his promises. He would never intentionally hurt me. I know him. I trust him.

So I'll continue to wait for him.

No matter how long it takes, I'll stay here and wait. I might sound delusional right now for some people, but I don't care. They don't know Gaby the way I know him. I'll wait until he comes back to me.

Though it really hurts not being able to see him, not being able to hear his voice, not being able to feel his gentle touch, and just not being able to have him by my side. I miss him so much.

More tears fell from my eyes as I remembered everything he said to me.

"Yes, you. I finally found my purpose in life and that is by being by your side, being anything you need me, being able to protect you. You're everything to me, Miracle Astor. If only you could see yourself the way I see you."

"I never knew that I could feel like this. But I guess just like your name entails, you Miracle, you are my most precious Miracle."

"So when I say I'll follow you wherever you go, I will, even if I have to follow you to the end of the earth I will, because I fucking need you, baby."