MIRACLE (✔️)

36: Holding on

Chapter 36

-Miracle Astor-

I woke up and found myself in a strange, unfamiliar, all-pink bedroom.

I'm not even kidding or exaggerating; every single piece of furniture inside this bedroom is the color pink. I love the color pink; I dress pink all the time, but even Barbie would say that this is too much pink.

This is absolutely starting to freak me out, and I almost want to scream and cry.

"P-please let this be another nightmare. Please." I shut my eyes, but nothing worked, of course.

I stood up from the bed and tried to open the door to get out of this pink madness, but of course it's locked. Why wouldn't it be locked?

I walked to the corner of the room, and my body dropped to the pink carpeted flooring. I whimpered and held my knees to my chest, curling myself in a small ball, wishing that I could disappear from here. Tears automatically streamed down my eyes, and I choked on a sob.

"Why is this always happening to me?"

Of course, I'm once again forcefully thrown into another whirlwind of problems I can't understand.

It's like I'm a magnet for every possible misfortune here on Earth.

I'm so tired of this already. I just want all of this to end. I just want to be happy and live my life.

Why is that so wrong?

Why is the world so against me being happy?

When will the light appear in this seemingly unending dark tunnel I'm in? Could there really still be a light when it already left me for another?

I mean, what is going to happen to me now? What is Claude going to do to me?

He scares me so much. This is the second time I've been hit like that, the first one being Quinton.

But with Quinton, Gabriel, my Gaby, was there to save me. He was always there to save me, always. Even when I didn't need him, when I pushed him away from me, when I turned him down, he was still always there. He did everything just to save me, just to make me feel safe and cared for.

He saved me in every possible way a person could be saved. (AN: Jack😭)

But he isn't here anymore.

Like Corbin said, he already left me for another girl, but I don't blame him at all. He deserves someone better, a girl who's pure and who doesn't have a lot of baggage and a painful, traumatic past like me. I don't hate him. I can never hate him, even if I want to. Gabriel is the first person who made me feel loved and special since dad died; how can I possibly bring myself to hate him? I'm just hurt and disappointed that he actually decided to break his promise and left me in the end.

But this is it, I guess.

No one is going to save me anymore.

I'd like to think of Damion, Maddox, and Hendrix coming running here, swooping in, to come and save me, but I seriously doubt that. They are busy there in the US, and I also doubt Corbin called them to tell them I ran away.

This is good for them, I think.

They are finally rid of the biggest burden to their family.

I miss them. Oh, I'm going to miss them so much. The twins and I were just starting to make up and rebuild our relationship, and Damion, I'm going to miss him the most. I'll miss playing our mom's favorite piano with him, I'll miss eating his delicious pancakes, and I'll miss all of his warm hugs.