my stars |ateez|

all of us?

~flashback~

HaJoon's POV:

It's a couple of days before we leave for our LA trip and Yunho finally grew the balls to ask Mingi out, obviously Mingi said yes but my heart can't help but slightly hurt.

I notice that all of the members start to kind of form their own pairs, Seonghwa and Hongjoong are really flirty with each other, San and Wooyoung, Yunho and Mingi obviously, and even Jongho and Yeosang.

That leaves me to just observe how each of them click together, I don't mind too much but at the same time I feel jealous, the same jealousy that I felt with Mingi and Yunho but for all of them. Now that I think about it, less of jealousy and more of longing, I want to have the same connection with them as well.

I'm currently packing my clothes for the trip, wanting to be prepared. I was told to film myself as I do it so I made sure to grab a camera from the company and record myself, showing what I'd bring.

"So here's my clothes and stuff, I also packed skin care and what not and I have my baby sister's stuffed animal that she gave me before I moved into the dorms" I explain while showing the camera some of my stuff while simultaneously giving the viewers a quick tour of my room that I share with Hongjoong.

I turn the camera off and turn my attention to the knock I hear at the door,
"Hey, we're gonna go get food do you want to come or have us bring you something back" he asks while leaning against the door frame. "You could just bring me back some dumplings" I say softly before showing him a tight lipped smile.

His face drops and he nods before nodding and leaving the room, I get up off of the floor and lay on my bed. Now don't get me wrong I love going out with everyone but now that everyone has their own groups is lonely just sitting there observing.

I take a deep breath and put on some music to listen to while I read, reading has always been an escape for me since I was a little kid. I end up getting so caught up in my book that I didn't realize it's been over two hours, I only realize when I hear a knock on my door.

I stand up and open it to see Wooyoung standing there with a bag of food and a big smile, "hi youngie" I say while opening the door for him to come in. "Hi Joonie" he responds while sitting on my bed and placing the food down.

I start to open the bad when he clears his throat, I raise my eyebrow and see him looking at me expectingly, "huh" I let out.
"Why didn't you come with us" he says with a dramatic little pout, i glanced back down at the bag while shrugging making him sigh.

"Did we do something to upset you? You've been distant lately" he asks making me tense, I didn't notice they payed attention to my behavior. I shake my head as I start eating my food, hoping to avoid this conversation as much as possible.

He sighs and gets up before leaving my room, making sure to close the door behind him.

Wooyoung's POV:

"Guys! Get your lazy asses up we have to talk" I say while going into the living room where everyone is spread out. "What's up Wooyoung?" San says while wrapping his arms around my waist from his spot on the couch.

"We have to talk about HaJoon" I say sternly making Jongho raise his eyebrows in confusion, "why?" He asks as all of the guys nod along with his question. "You guys haven't noticed the way he's been acting? Super awkward?" I ask making Hongjoong tense up and nod his head.