The boy in the Middle

2018:Part 2

Gavi felt bad.That was not like him to not be kind.There was something about tjat boys touch that made him snap.Either that or the fact that he did not want anyone he didnt know,know that he was having a panic attack.Everything was just fucked up. He was still just standing there when he heard the door from the stall open.The same guy proceeded to go to the sink next to him to wash his hands.

"iam sorry.."he whispers.

The guy gives him no mind as he proceeds to the hand drier.

"hey..iam sorry for snapping at you earlier.." he says a bit louder now .

The guy just looked at him lost.He didnt know if his english wasnt coming out the way he wanted to,or his spanish accent was over crowding it all enough to be understood.He was innerly frustrated not knowing what to do. After a few seconds,the guy just looked at him and smiled:

"its okay" and left the bathroom.Shit.

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The day of the game was intense.Both teams wanted to win for their pride and country.Gavi quickly got the memo that the boy he had an encounter with in the bathroom was important in his time as much as he was.Hell,he was the team captain.There was something strange about the boy or rather about how he made Gavi feel.He felt nervous around him.Aroused.He could not look the guy in the eyes.He didnt know if it was due to embarrasment for his reaction that day or something much more.He wished it was the first. England ended up winning 4-2 with a brace from you know who.The spain camp organised small dinner at the camp nou cafeteria with the first team barca team to serve as role models for the boys especially those from england.

The boys were having fun asking the older players questions and doing karaoke.Gavi was having fun.

"He keeps looking at you" Fermin whispers in his ears.

"i heard him ask Xavi your name"

"Who??" gavi looks around and the his eyes met his.Daamn,was he still hang up on what happened??he seriously needed to let it go.

"Shit,thats the guy.."

"Bathroom guy..Englands captain"fermin asks interested

"Yes"

"shit,do you think he is mad at you being rude at him??"He asks with concern this time around.

"I did apologize and he did say it was okay so i dont know"

"i think you should go and talk to him"

"nooo"

"Okay then" and the look on Fermins face,Gavi knew he had fucked up.

In a split second fermin was talking animatedly with the guy and Gavi wished the floor would just swallow him whole.If only Fermin knew the demons he was fighting against.

.........

"Hie"the handsome guy was now towering over Gavi. "Your friend said you wanted to talk to me"**Shit,fermin**

"Well.." before he could continue the fuy cut him off.

"Maybe outside,its a bit too loud here"

The guy says this and turns around now Gavi had no choice but follow him around like a lost puppy.

Once outside Gavi apologizes again which makes jude laugh.It was okay he reassures him and changes the subject to spain and how he loved the weather here.The conversation was flowing perfectly then Gavi had to ruin it all by blurting

"I have social anxiety and get panic attacks if iam all in my head.Not all the times but..."He trailed off to be apologetic and make excused about it with Judes gaze piercing his literal soul

"Its okay you,you dont have to apogize for it or anything.."

Gavi smiles.

"You know,you are the first stranger ive said this to"

"Ive known you for like a week,iam not a stranger.." Jude says returning the smile.

"iam Pablo Gavira but you can call me Gavi by the way...since ive let you on my little secret."

jude laughs.

"Iam Jude,jude bellingham" 

They just stared at each other until Gavi decided to continye talking.

Gavi then tells him how it all started and in return Jude tells him how his brother handles his and ginving Gavi pointers.For someone who hated making friends.Gavi was really making one.

"iam Gay"Jude just drops it like that."Just felt like telling you to make it even"

Gavis heard was spinning.How can this guy just say something like thisike that??with no shame whatsoever.and what if he kissed him??he cant lie the guy was looking at him a certain tyoe of way and even though deep down Gavi wished the guy would kiss him he panicked.Instead of being calm about it,he did the most stupud thing ever.He ran away.

They were having such a good time but the minute Jude said he was Gay,he run off.If hearts can break into 2 Judes heart broke into pieces.Had he just told a homophobic guy he was gay??it he make him uncomfortable??was he going to tell every one??Jude just say there and wanted to cry.

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Gavi wasnt thinking straight.He had panicked.Gay??footballers are now allowed to just ne Gay??was him being attracted to this jude guy,does it make him Gay.He felt like throwing up.He was heading to the bathrooms when on a dark alley way he saw two people kissing.Two men??was he imagining things now that jude called himself gay??When he got a closer look thou,he swear he was fainting.There stood the club legend,best player in barcelona and the world Leo Messi kissing his greatest rival ever Christiano Ronaldo.Gavi wished right there and then to disappear.