Eternal Sunshine☀️

update!

Hiya guys.....
I'm so sorry i literally ditched you unannounced and you don't know how bad I feel about that.

But I want you to know that yes I will continue this story further....i just need time.

Actually I've been going through a very rough phase rn....

I just found out that I was kinda the 3rd person in my relationship of 7 months. And well....ofc , chase two girls, lose the one, unfortunately it's me who has to be lost.

So...yeah...a break up, a messy bad breakup...it hurts alot.

I'm not in the condition to imagine and write but sure I will try my best to start posting again.

So..let me share my story with y'all:

It started a few months back when this guy commented on a reel and i liked his comment.....he requested to follow me (apparently, as he said, he found me pretty and he was curious) and i accepted his request....a few days later he replied to my story that I posted.

And well...bura waqt tabse hi shuru ho gya tha when I replied to his message.

Well we instantly hit it off and started to talk...we'd talk all day and night till our phones would die out of low battery.

And we talked about each and everything, there was nothing that I couldn't discuss with him, he told me everything about his life and I told him all about mine. We exchanged numbers and we'd talk for hours on the call.

And guess what? Well I fell in love and we got into a relationship but which went on for a few months...by this time I was truly madly deeply in love with this guy....we met a few times, made out and shit but then...

One day he broke up! And I came to know there was this girl named anushka (who once had already ditched and ghosted him during his lowest) came back and well...she was there all along.

So...yep that's how it ended....it's been two fucking months and I'm still in touch with that guy....still in love with that guy.

And honestly it feels like shit.

I just wanna be with him, I just want him to be mine...i miss him....alot. And it's just hard to live on without him with me. (manifest)

So yeah, that girl is still with him...and I honestly wish that he's happy, with or without me...idc.

I love him and I don't need him to be with me for me to keep living him, I can love him the same in distance.

But yk....just know that I really really love him and this is a reall tough time for me.

This yearning, this longing, this need to be with him...I'm not doing well at all. I keep missing him 24/7 and I hate the fact that he's just fine with some other girl....i don't hate her but it still hurts.

I literally JUST wanted him to love me even quarter the amount that I love him.

And well...he said ily and ik that maybe for a moment, he did really love me because those eyes can't lie so well....he can't keep up with a lie for too long.

He cares about me still, he listens to me alot....he even says ily back to me whenever I say it but he just can't be with me.

He loves me, but love isn't enough sometimes....he's the right person for me, the way we just get along tells all about it.

I love him too and the worst thing is that my love for him which once healed me from everything is now killing me from inside.

We're right for each other, but we just met at the wrong time...that's it.

I hope and wish my boy all the good luck in the world, he deserves it. Believe me when I tell you he's a really good person(better than many guys out there), he has 0 male ego, he isn't toxic at all and that's what made me love him so much, it's just that, we need to accept that good people also makes mistakes and that's ok.

He hurt me....that's ok, he broke my heart that's ok. I love him too much to hate him for such petty things.

So yeah that was it, I hope you guys understand how's everything affecting me rn.

I just need some time and I'll be fine (ig?) And yes I will continue this story, so don't worry about aage ki story.

Thank you :)

(I'm not going to pretend like I wrote this with a straight face when I was clearly bawling my eyes out so if there are any errors, I'm sorry)