Embracing You (VERHAN)

It feels warm

So I made my way to Vernon. And slumped my body in the blanket. I was feeling a bit cold. My arm brushed against his. I felt a a sudden current through my body. Maybe because I was feeling cold, I reasoned with myself.

The movie started and everybody stopped talking, turning their attention to the screen. Let's just watch it without sleeping, not thinking much, I told myself. It was an action movie with some drama.

So, I thought apart from some noises, it should be fine. But I was proved wrong the next second. A car crashed with another, making me jump. I was trying to keep my eyes open, but my body seemed to disagree. 

I was struggling to sit straight, without sloping into Vernon. It was becoming unbearable with every second passing. I felt like my body would give up any minute. So I decided along my heart, to rest my head on Vernon's shoulders. 

Sure he wouldn't mind. We have been members of the same group for 8 years now. And we have touched each other before, heck we have hugged.

Occassionally yes, but we have. So I let my head drift towards his shoulder slowly. Why was I so nervous ? 

Another minute passed by, and finally my head was resting on Vernon's shoulder. And no, he did not push me off. Which I was grateful for. 

Other explosions kept me awake though my eyes drowsing every other second. And some of these explosions from the members, who were chatting and laughing too loud.

30 minutes into the movie, and my eyes were sleepy enough to shut my body down. I felt my own body so heavy that it was becoming impossible to hold myself properly. 

I needed a support. To rest my body onto. And my body found Vernon. Before I could act against it, my hand reached Vernon's lap. 

It's not that I didn't want to but my mind was still in protest. But I suddenly felt Vernon's hand slid past my waist, holding my body to slump further. 

I felt my heart flutter. But that could be because of my cold body getting some warmness, I reasoned. Another 10 minutes passed by which felt like eternity. 

In between, others kept bickering and discussing the movie. But my mind was hyptonised by Vernon's presence to register anything else around me. 

I just wanted to sleep, and shut every thought down. It was taking an immense amount of power to even think. 

I dug my head further in Vernon's neck unintentionally. His skin felt hot, burning like fire. Maybe it was because I was shivering. 

He scented fresh. He scented of freshly rained earth and humid air. Honestly, I loved his scent.

( That's just my favouirte scent guys......)

I felt something strangling my fingers. I opened my eyes enough to see, it was Vernon's hand. He was playing with my fingers. And I would be lying if I say I didn't like it. 

"Hyung, you feel cold. Are you okay ?" I heard Vernon's voice. It was a concerned whisper so as not to disturb any other member. 

I opened my eyes and looked up, my face was just an inch apart from his. His long eyelashes fluttering at me. 

"Mhmm, it feels warm" I said in a very low voice. He couldn't have heard if not for this unusual closeness.

It feels warm ? What ? Why the hell would I say something like that ? I cursed myself in my mind. 

Next thing I felt was Vernon scooping me to his side. And I was more than pliant to allow. Maybe he did this to keep me warm. 

I argued to that small voice in my head which was screaming that it could be becuase he likes my touch.

What ? Why the hell would I think like that ? I hated my mind right now. 

He tucked the blanket to my sides properly. And kept holding my hand. It felt so good to be held by someone. 

Well not just someone. There were numerous intances where other members hugged me, held like this before. But it never triggered my heart like this. 

I was losing control on myself. Why was it felt like an ocean of emotions keot rushing towards me at his slightest touch ? Why did he feel different from the rest of members ? 

And why the hell was it now ? 

Movie progressed with more cars and people exploding, and so did my urge to sleep. I didn't realize when this urge changed into action. 

My body, as if acting on it's own, put my right leg on Vernon's legs. And my hand wrapped around his slender waist. 

I hate to admit but I just wanted to sleep in his embrace, till eternity. My body did what it felt right. And now my mind did what it felt right, overthink......

What if he pushes me off ? What if he is disgusted of me ? What will he think of me ? All these thoughts were swirling in my mind, making me feel nauseated. 

And suddenly I felt Vernon's hand move on my back. He held my waist gently, and enveloped me in his embrace, moving me closer to him. Or possibly the closest it could get. 

And then he did which I hadn't expected at all. He took my both legs and put them on top of his. My whole body was almost on his body. 

And then he looked at me, and smiled through his thin lips. I swear I felt my world illuminated. I wanted to return the smile but my body was too reluctant. 

I just nuzzled my head into his neck, inhaling his scent into my lungs.