Embracing You (VERHAN)

Jealousy and Coffee

I wanted that warmth again. I wanted to sleep in his embrace. I looked at him and he had already drifted to sleep. I pouted at the situation but had no other option. 

My eyes opened to welcome the darkness. My throat felt really dry. I tried getting up to get some water when I realized some light weight over myself. I rubbed my eyes to see properly. I was flabbergasted to see Vernon right next to me. His face was shining in dim light. His one hand was holding me lightly while other supoorted my head. 

I gasped and flung backwards with a jolt. Surprisingly he didn't even flinch. I sighed in relief. When the hell did I get this close to him ? And he did not retort ?

Was it me or him ? It couldn't be him right ? My head was exploding. I took long breaths. I sipped some water to calm my nerves. There was a big problem in front of me now. 

Do I go back to sleep as earlier ? Or do I sleep away from him ? What if I wake him up ? Will he get mad at the situation ? Perhaps not. But ? WHAT THE HELL DO I DO ? I let my heart win though my mind sounded more logical. I moved towards him, very slowly. 

I laid down, putting my head back on his forearm. I was so wary as if there were landmines. Somehow I managed to do so. Thankfully he didn't wake up. I was laying down next to him but it was still far away. I need to be close to him. I mustered courage and moved closer. 

My belly touched his hand which was lying down. I went dead silent, waiting for him to wake up shocked. But to my relief, he didn't. Instead, he lifted his arm and draped it around my back. And then his hand held my waist gently and he pulled me closer. 

I was silent but my insides were screaming. Did he just pulled me close, in his sleep ? Oh My God. Before I could take this in, I felt his other hand move away from my head. Now what ? Is he going to push me away ? When he himself pulled me closer ? 

Gosh this would be so embarassing. I waited for every movement of his. I was just laying there in a fixed position, scared to move even an inch. To my heart's content, his hand transfered to my back. He hugged me softly and pulled me into his embrace. 

My head was now snuggled into his tshirt which smelled of lavender. I could hear his rythmic heartbeat and his breath was tickling my hair. As a reaction, my hand went flying on his back too and he just rested in my embrace. I took his scent in. 

Even though I was still surprised, I basked in his soothing embrace. Without any further thought, I drifted back to sleep. 

NEXT DAY : 

It was the second and last night of the concert and everything was going great. We performed all the songs and now were just messing around, having fun with carats. Meanwhile my best friends were back to their main job, annoying the hell out of me. 

Of course it didn't go unnoticed that I was a bit too happy these days. And they were irritatingly smart to catch on. I was messing around with Joshua, teasjng him back about how he always tried stupid things to get his boyfriend's attention when I heard Hoshi talk something about Vernon. 

I stopped at paid attention to what they were saying. Apparently it was about how strong his gaze is when he looks at them. I looked at Vernon and he was looking gorgeous in that black jacket, smiling a bit. I shouldn't have but I felt jealous. I know it's just members and they mean no harm. But my one sided crush was going no where. 

I would ignore the cuddle part, for my sanity. Hoshi told how during BoomBoom, their eyes meet. They even reenacted that. And Vernon was smiling blissfully. I had this sudden urge to scream. All the members too were either smiling or adoring them while I tried to act normal.