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he got me searching through my phone for other dudes

So i

Asked him to delete our sexts n send me a ss.

He then said "Let's not do that part"

"I guess u get scared"

"You're a friend and i don't want you to be scared"

MOTHERFUCK UR FRNDSHIP.

😐👎

How does he get to be the good guy here?

How does he look like the mature one here?

Its legit so 🥲

Bruh

I hate being the immature one 🤡

BUT HERE'S THE THING

I M IMMATURE

IM DELUSIONAL

IM CRAZY

Im unstable

That's why i hate ppl who r stable in life.

Who got it all together.

I hate them

Because i m scared of stability

Older mature dudes make me so insecure

Because i like the chaos, i like the craziness.

And if im being honest i Dont believe guys like this would be ever looking at me.

Because they look for good girls and up until college my image wasn't clean tbh especially the shit i used to post online😐

But bcs of work i had to clean up that past n just fit into this corporate slave persona n bro I'll tell u THE THINGS I HAVE TO DO FOR MONEY.

Pretending to be a good girl is tough but its not impossible especially because of my strict schooling.

I talk softly and pretend to be nice bcs i get paid fr it lol

Not bcs im actually nice.

Well he was also pretending to be decent wen he is a pretty horny ass motherfucker lol

🤣🤣🤣

BUT WTF IS THIS BS MAN

He said im perfect for him n if he was in india he wud hv proposed

Ain't letting no delhi bro wife me up💀

But when i told my frnd abt the things he said he would do

My frnd was like "why is he doing wifey shit with a hookup?"

Especially the way he talks and all that😐☝️

😭☕️

I-

I Don know

So yeah we stopped talking for now. But we still work together😐

So today i was in a call with my junior and she said he can help

N like the bitch i am i pulled him into the call.

MY HANDS N VOICE WERE FUCKING SHAKING LOL

But i did manage to ask what i need n get it done.

Lol

Im actually proud of myself.

Because avoiding him would only cause problems so speaking w someone else in the call was better.

But-

How tf do u talk about work after u have talked about licking each others privates💀

But lol

The thing is i already  had 2 situationships at work.

And none of them were as bad.

We could legit speak of the vibrators i like at night then get the job done in the morning.

MF was good in that sense cuz he was a fboi.

Shit yaar

And I m thinking of him so much now.

A DELHI GUY THAT TOOOOOO

He legit got me searching for dudes to hit up in my contacts🙂🥲

AND IT WUD BE GOOD HONESTLY I NEED SM1 ELSE TO MOVE ON FROM HIM

Bruh

But here's the thing

I deleted half of the guys cuz i wanted to focus on my exams

And then he enters in my life when i was most stressed n lonely.

These men come to your lives to ruin it bro

I never even get close to guys like that who r serious about relationships.

Especially older dudes.

But here he comes💀🤡

All of whatever happened was out of my control tbh.

My frnds r suggesting tinder bumble hinge blah blah

Bro i have exams-

I want to preserve my sanity.

Dont want drama but

I got it.

But i think its just the timing that made me like this

🙂💞

I will be fine

Since i haven't given up until now there must be something 🙂☝️