good luck, babe! | b.e.

003.

TALIA

"Alright, Talia, can I see your therapy journal entry for today's session?"

I hand it to the lady and she flips open to the page. "Day 8 of conversion therapy: fuck this you stupid bitch."

I give her an innocent smile and she sighs. "Talia, I'm just trying to teach you the right thing. It's what God wants." Tammy tells me.

"You know what I want? Some good pussy. Which is from a girl, by the wa-"

"Don't be disgusting." She scoffs. "So me loving someone is disgusting? It's 2020 and people like you and my parents still exist which I think is the real disgusting thing." I say.

"Don't worry, by day 30, you'll accept it. It's just a phase you're going through." She rolls her eyes.

"I'm done for today." I say, getting off the couch. "Talia, sit." Tammy orders.

"No, I'm tired of this. I just miss my girlfriend." I cry.

"I understand, honey." She sighs. "When I was your age, I had a girlfriend too, but I broke up with her because I knew it wasn't right. Now I'm a happy hetero and this is why I do my job."

A happy hetero? Is she okay?

"I need to go."

I stand up and walk out before going to my car. I get in and start crying.

I said 'girlfriend' when she has to be my ex now.

I can't take this anymore.

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3 weeks later...

"Now tell me what you learned."

"Being straight is the key to a happy life. I'm made for having children and being a wife." I say.

"Exactly!" Tammy grins. "You're doing so well, Talia. Say the rest."

"Liking the same gender is wrong and goes against God."

"Perfect." She smiles. "You're free to go."

I smile and get off the couch, then go down to my car.

Like Tammy said, conversion therapy has finally been working.

I feel so much better already with Billie out of my mind. Sure, I miss her company, but I know being with her was wrong.

I'm making progress.

BILLIE

"Billie, I know you're upset, but you have to stop crying so loudly, honey."

"Mom, I can't take it anymore. I miss her so much." I say through tears. "I know, sweetie." She hugs me. "You'll find your way back to each other, I promise."

"How do you know that?" I sniffle.

"You're soulmates."

She gives me another hug and kisses my forehead before walking out of my room.

I miss Talia more than anything.

I wonder if she thinks about me as much as I think about her.

I can't live without her. Some days, I just wish I was dead.

It's been over a month without the love of my life and my heart is so hurt.

I'm trying my best to be happy, but how can I be happy when Talia is out of my life?

I fucking hate Logan. He's the one who told her parents.

I feel my breathing get heavier and I get up and walk out to my car without even thinking. I start driving and once I drive past Talia's house, I sigh, but keep going forward.

I get to Logan's house and knock on the door. "Oh, hi, Billie." His mom smiles. "Can I help you?"

"Can you tell Logan to come outside?" I grin innocently. "How about you go up to his room? He's up there now." She suggests. "Okay." I nod.

I walk past her and up the stairs. She tells me which room is his and I walk in.

I've met his mom a few times, but don't know her that well, but she's nice.

I open the door and shut it behind me. "Hey there, Logan." I smile mischievously.

"Uh, what are you doing here?" He asks. "Just wanted to give you something." I reply. "What is it?" Logan questions.

"This."

I punch him in his face and punch him over and over again. "You little fucking bitch." I say between punches. "Your homophobic ass cost me my girlfriend. I don't know if you know, but I don't fuck around when it comes to the people I love."

"Billie, I'm sorry." He says with tears running down his face. "Please stop."

I kick him in between his legs, making him groan. "Why the fuck would you do that?"

"Because you're a piece of shit." I respond. I punch him a few more times before backing away and pushing my hair out of my face. "Tell anyone and you're fucking dead, you hear me?"

"Yes." He nods frantically.

I walk out of his room, downstairs, and back to my car.

When I drive by Talia's house again, I'm so tempted to stop and run inside to hug her, but I know I can't.

Things can't be the same anymore all because of Logan.

I miss my sweet girl.

I miss her love.

I miss her.. everything.

Things will change once she turns 18, right? She'll come running back to me and we can live like this never happened.

It has to happen.

I know it will. I just think of what my mom told me.

We're soulmates.

a/n 🤍

sorry this is short 😭