good luck, babe! | b.e.

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TALIA

I don't like girls.

I don't like girls.

I don't like girls.

I don't like girls.

I. Don't. Like. Girls.

I'm not gay.

I can't be gay.

It's wrong.

Isn't it?

But most importantly, I don't like Billie. Not like that. I can't ever be in love with her again.

It's wrong to God.

She saved me all those years ago. She was my reason for living. When I found God, I didn't think I needed Billie. I didn't think I needed anyone but him.

But now that she's back in my life, what if I'm wrong? What if I do need her?

I hate feeling this way.

I pull out my phone and go to Billie's contact.

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iMessage

billie

i really miss you

can we hang out?

of course

i'll be over soon

thank you b

anything for you

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In real life

I just wanna talk to her. I need to figure out my feelings. I think this could help.

When Billie gets here, I let her in and she walks inside. I hug her tightly and she hesitates before hugging back. "You okay?" She chuckles.

"I've been missing you." I admit, staring down at the floor. "You been missing me, baby girl?" She asks. "You're cute."

"Don't. You know what I said." I warn, trying to hide the blush on my face.

I don't like girls.

She just.. made me nervous.

"C'mon, I used to always call you that. Even when we were friends." Billie frowns. "You can't call me that stuff if we're gonna be just friends." I sigh.

"I know, I know." She nods her head sadly. "I just still miss the way things were, you know?"

"Bil, let's just let it go. You need to let me go." I tell her, grabbing her hands and looking her straight in the eyes. "We can be friends, but you have to give up on us. It's not happening. Don't waste your time."

"You really don't like girls anymore? Like, for real?" She asks. "Billie, I went to conversion therapy and everything. It changed me. I don't like girls anymore." I reply.