good luck, babe! | b.e.

006.

TALIA

Seeing Billie yesterday brought back so much memories.

Whether they were good or bad doesn't matter. I just don't know what to think.

She knows things are different now and that I can't like her.

I don't want to be rude, but I don't like girls like that.

Not anymore.

But I still missed her nonetheless.

I don't know why.

Billie's been out of my life for years, so why do I still care about her? It just doesn't make sense. It's stupid of me to care.

Right?

I think so.

But I kind of wanna see her again. Why? I have no idea.

But I should.

Shouldn't I?

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iMessage

billie

hi billie

i know you're still upset with me but i'd like
to hang out again sometime

why even bother

because i'd like to be friends

you know we can't be friends talia

why not?

it hurts too much

plus you're fucking homophobic now like
wtf

i looooove pussy

ew shut up

don't be gross

you're just like your mom and dad.

the people you hated so much for not
letting you love me

but look where you are now

billie i really am sorry

can i come over? i just wanna talk

i promise ill make it quick

i don't wanna see you

please

whatever fine

thank you

my address is xxx

i'll be there soon

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In real life

I quickly get up from my bed and out of my room. I put my shoes on before grabbing my keys and walking out of my apartment.

I head downstairs and get into my car. Once I put Billie's address in my GPS, I start driving there.

When I'm at her house, I get out of the car and walk up to the front door before knocking.

Billie opens the door and sighs when she sees me. "Hi."

"Hey." I say quietly. She stands by the door, allowing me to come in. I step inside and she leads me to her living room.

Her dog, Shark comes up to me and I gasp. "Hi, baby. It's so good to finally meet you." I say in a baby voice to him.

"Talia, not the time. Would you get this over already?" Billie rolls her eyes. "Sorry." I mumble.

I take a deep breath before speaking. "Okay. You wanna know why I'm like this?"

"Go on."

"When we were dating, I felt so disgusted in myself all the time and I can't handle feeling that way ever again. The way I was raised ruined my view on love and I don't know if I'll ever be able to see it again. I know that being with you or any girl would mean my parents would never speak to me again and I love them. I can't have that happening." I explain.

"But why? They're homophobic assholes. They've never treated you right, Talia. All you do is kiss their ass so you don't get scolded by them because you know that's all they do." Billie rolls her eyes.

She's right unfortunately.

"I'm sorry." I whisper, looking down at my lap. "But all I wanted was my parents to be there on my wedding day. I knew that if it was you, they wouldn't be there and if it meant marrying a man, then that's what I want."

"Talia, it's 2024. This shit is so ridiculous. What did you go to? Conversion camp?" Billie rolls her eyes and scoffs.

"Yeah.." I admit.

"Oh my fucking god." She replies. "Just get out. I don't wanna hear anymore of this shit."

"Billie, please. I'll s-"

"Go, Talia. I don't wanna see you." She says quietly.

I sigh and get up from the couch. I walk out of her house without saying goodbye and get back in my car.

Tears start rolling down my face out of frustration as I drive back home.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

Why am I like this?

BILLIE

Talia is unbelievable.

And she wouldn't get married to a girl if it meant her parents wouldn't come?

She can't even be the real her because of them.

I know deep down she must not feel that way.

I just don't know what happened to her. It's like she changed overnight.

I just miss the way things were.

But it'll never be the same again.

I guess I have to accept that.

It just hurts. It hurts knowing that the girl that once was my everything will never be that again. And I hate it.

There's no way to fix this. She's not gonna just randomly like girls again.

I have to be okay with this.

a/n 🤍

lil filler for nowww