When death takes so many things close to you, just weeks apart. You learn to hate it, dread the next one. Learn how to tell when the next one is due, learn to mourn faster, ultimately learn how to cope. I am tired of losing, but all three are in a good place now. I now know how to let go, listen better, be there more. I have not always been so kind. That's on me. But don't hate me for it. I'm learning from my experiences, and lately...they have pushed me further into nursing. Further into letting the past go. Further ahead.
To my patient,
You, ____ made a beautiful storm. It was lovely to meet you, lovely staying, lovely passing. You truly were so sweet, kindest woman I have ever met. Taught me a lot, and I taught you.
To my pet,
I miss you. God I miss you so much, this part of me will never be the same. You were the calmest part of me that brought water to my flames, for being a lizard you truly changed everything.
To my uncle,
I didn't know you well, the kid in me remembered you well. Fun loving and kind spirited. You changed for the worst, and I'm happy I know the side I did of you, as I don't want to know the person that died in the hospital room.
To my past lover,
Though you are not gone, you are apart of my past that I wronged. I'm sorry. Not much else to say, both of us made mistakes, it happens. We both owe apologies. You grow and mend with your partner, but we didn't do that. Maybe we could, but I could never be the person you love again, maybe I'm simply too different now, and maybe you are too.
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Words Best Left Unsaid
PoetryLet's be honest. Some words are better left unsaid, these..these are my words that shouldn't have been said. Some of these I know are not perfect, but they are mine. My thoughts and pain I have been though, I will not apologize for speaking my truth...
