New Beginnings

A/n

You guys can skip this chapter. I'm just venting cause I have no one to go to.

Hi guys. I've not being doing great. I'm sorry I must sound like such an attention seeker. Though I need to put it somewhere. I don't trust my notes or docs cause my parents can access those. Everything sucks. Homophobia sucks. I've recently started cutting myself again and I don't know how I'm gonna try and stop. I was a week clean. Then someone went and called my a trans fag and bullied me. Then someone on Youtube started. I know I shouldn't care about what anyone says. I may say to ignore what everyone says but its harder said than done. I'm trying to not have suicidal thoughts cause my dad said that He is gonna die before me and that Im not allowed to die. Its not like I want to die. its just I don't know how I'm gonna finish high school. I had a panic attack over making a list on how to have a strong application. My mom decided to tell me that who I was wasn't okay. So I'm stuck at my dads house. My dog died the same day. Everyone seems to have forgotten about her and I don't know how to feel about it. My friend ditched me telling me that God made me who I was and it wasn't okay that I was trans. that stuff. So I'm just stuck. I don't know. My hands shake 24/7 so I have to make it seem like Im fidgeting. People probably think I have ADHD. With a constant smile, Jumping around, being enthusiastic, and always helping people at their lowest. God I'm so done. but there's no need to worry. I'm not gonna commit. I'm gonna be okay. Ill get out of this. Somehow.