forbidden idol love

hate comments

𝐉𝐀𝐘 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕

I started a live after our tour, I was tired but still decided to start a live.
"Hello engenes~ did u guys today's show? We worked really hard today.. I hope u guys enjoyed it" I was just talking about random stuff, I was also eating cause I have eaten all day. As I was talking and eating, I was reading some comments, most being about hate and about heeseung
Comments/chat:
User1:jay ur so rude, why did u avoid heeseung? Your so heartless..
User5: jay, ur eating so much. Dont u think u should avoid it to like how u avoided heeseung oppa?
User7:you eat so much jay, u should just stop eating honestly, no harsh feelings.

I read the comments,holding back my tears. "I'm full" I said, I only took 3 bites and i just push the food away. I was avoiding the hate comments even though it hurted me. "Jay-ah, what happened with you and heeseung?" I read a comment. "Ah, nothing happened guys, I didn't know I was avoiding him" then the comments burst into even more hate.
Comments/chat:
User9:you liar! Your such a heartless man you f@tty!
User4:ur just gonna lie to ur fans like that? Ur such a b!cth
User10:I can't believe your actually so close to enhypen, they don't need a liar like you.

I saw all the hate comments.. I was completely heartbroken. Maybe I am too heartless.. Maybe I am eating to much.. Maybe I don't deserve to be in enhypen at all.. I heals back my tears, my heart completely broken. I looked up trying to hold back my tears. "Y-ueah, the ceilings are very nice I like my new dorm a lot" I said with a shaky voice, trying to find an excuse. I then got up acting like I needed to grab something. I came back after wiping my tears. Then I saw heeseung comment
Heeseung:jay-ah.are you ok?

I read the comment, and I just wanted to break down then and there. "Ah.. Heeseung hyung commented, yes I'm fine hyung" I said pursing my lips into a thin line trying to make it like a smile.

Comments/chat:
User3:omg, heeseung oppa commented!! It's ok heeseung, jay is very heartless, but I'm not pookie<33
User5:heeseung oppa! I'm so sorry for jay acting so mean towards you!!
User9:ahhh heeseung oppa! Dont worry! We already handled jays heartless behavior! He should just leave enhypen!

There goes the continued hate. I need the live. I was done. "Bye engenes, I need to go to sleep now" I said before ending the live. I got up and walked to the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror. "Why are you like this jay? Why do u eat so much.. Why are you so mean? Why are you so.. Useless?" I spoke to myself in the mirror, my tears finally falling. Then I heard a voice behind me "your beautiful jay. Absolutely perfect"

𝐉𝐚𝐲 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐨 𝐜𝐮𝐭𝐞!! 𝐀𝐧𝐲𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬, 𝐮𝐡𝐦, 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲'𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐝𝐞, 𝐈𝐥𝐥 𝐮𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐛𝐢𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐬𝐨- 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡, 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐞𝐝🤗