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Phayu’s feelings for Rain were complex and layered. Over the years, Rain had been more than just a friend—he had been a confidant, a source of joy, and someone Phayu could always rely on. Their bond had been built on years of shared experiences and mutual support, making Rain’s recent distance even more troubling.
Phayu felt a deep sense of responsibility for Rain’s well-being. He was genuinely concerned about his friend’s sudden departure and the apparent strain on their relationship. Phayu’s thoughts were constantly preoccupied with what might be troubling Rain. Despite his own happiness with Melanie, Phayu couldn’t ignore the nagging worry about Rain’s emotional state.
Seeing Rain’s reaction when he returned to university stirred a mix of emotions in Phayu. On one hand, there was relief that Rain was back. On the other, there was a growing frustration at his inability to fully understand or address Rain’s concerns. Phayu sensed that there was more to Rain’s distress than just Phayu’s relationship with Melanie, and this left him feeling helpless.
As Rain began to spend time with Alex, Phayu grappled with feelings of jealousy and insecurity. He couldn’t help but wonder if Alex was becoming a new source of support for Rain, potentially replacing the role Phayu had once played. This jealousy was compounded by his own feelings of inadequacy and guilt over not being able to fully support Rain during his time of need.
Phayu also felt a pang of regret and sadness over the realization that Rain’s feelings for him were unspoken and unresolved. Phayu had been oblivious to the depth of Rain’s emotions, and now he found himself questioning whether he had missed opportunities to address and acknowledge them. The thought that Rain might be struggling with unrequited feelings made Phayu feel even more conflicted.
Despite all this, Phayu’s fundamental desire was for Rain to be happy and fulfilled. He wanted to support Rain, even if it meant stepping back to give him space. Phayu understood that he couldn’t force Rain to open up or resolve his own feelings. Instead, he resolved to be a steady presence in Rain’s life, offering his support without pressuring him.
Ultimately, Phayu’s feelings toward Rain were a blend of deep friendship, unresolved emotional complexity, and a genuine wish for Rain’s well-being. He hoped that with time and understanding, their relationship could find a new balance, allowing both of them to move forward with clarity and renewed connection.
