Blake's and Ryan's daughters

Chapter 11

Nadia's POV:

I'm in my bedroom laying down as I hear Johnny and Blake talking. I hear Johnny knock on the door to my bedroom I quickly put on my headphones making her think that I'm listening to music as I watch him enter the room. I watch her nervously walk over to me and sit on the bed taking my hand.

"Hey Nads why don't you come out and talk to Blake? You know try to clear the air between you two?" Johnny asks me making me sigh as I shake my head

"Why should I waste my breath talking to her? She has never done anything to benefit me. She done nothing for me. She is not my biological mother." I say angrily as Johnny tries to calm me down

I watch as Johnny takes a deep breath rubbing his face I can see that he is thinking as he rubs my back. I know Johnny just wants what best for me at the end of the day. I know the amount of nights he stayed with me at the orphanage to protect me from the abuse and held me as I cried about Blake to him. Once I look up to see his face I see how concerned she is I take my headphones off. I turn to look at him as I see him stop and process on what to say next. I can practically see the words swirling around in his head.

"I know you don't want or really need to talk to her. But I think you should not to benefit her but to help you and your sister heal from the trauma and anger you both have against her from that night. I ain't saying you guys should forgive her. Shit I don't think I could even forgive her if I was in yours or Ruby's position. I'm just saying maybe you guys should hear her out. It might make everyone feel better in the end. Or at least make you understand her a little bit more. Get to know why she chose to leave while Ryan got wasted." Johnny says as I close my eyes processing what he just said really taking in everything he just told me

"Please just promise me you will at least think about it okay? You don't have to talk to her about anything today. Fuck you do not even have to talk to her about it in a month from now. I do have to tell you something I may have told Blake a tiny white lie just a little bit to get her to leave you alone cause I know you wanted her too. I told her that we need to get lunch before you have to do your homework again. I explained to her you haven't finished all the assignments you needed to do before class tomorrow. She actually just left to go get dinner. Which is why I came I am here to let you know that she is gone." Johnny explains to me as I nod gratefully

"I just ordered your favorite Subway menu options from that place we always go to that is two blocks away from here. I'm gonna go and pick it up. I know you probably wanna relax so I'll get it myself. If there is anything you want me to pick up just message me. I am hoping by the time we finish eating the food Noah should be done all his chores. Then we can go pick up Noah and hang out for a bit before you have to go home to Blake and Ryan. I'll be right back." Johnny says kissing my cheek as I put on my best fakest smile in his direction

"Okay I really love that plan. I'm excited for us to all hang out. We're gonna have fun. It'll be the thing we all need to help us all destress. I love you." I say as I watch Johnny smiles brightly as his eyes twinkle making me feel bad for faking this happiness in front of him

"I love you too so much Nadia more than you will ever realize." Johnny says hugging me tightly before he leaves

Once I know that Miles has left I put my headphone back on. I look at my iPod. I put on "Death In My Pocket" by Machine Gun Kelly. I don't know if I'm ready to acknowledge what Blake has to say. In all honestly I don't know if I'll ever be ready. How come she didn't try and be a mother to me? Was she that ashamed of me because I ain't easy? She literally hasn't told anyone in her family that I'm living here. Why is she keeping me as a dirty little secret? Was I that hard to love? I thought she was too busy working and loving Ryan to be a mother or to even care or love me. Does she even actually love me? I can't help as extreme amounts of anger starts to rise in me. She never even wanted me in the first place I realize. I am lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice the door to my bedroom has opened. I look up to realize Johnny is back as he is holding the bags of Subway food. I quickly get out of the bed not even looking at Johnny or acknowledging her as I enter the bathroom. I lock the door after slamming it shut making sure he can't come inside. I open the mirror cabinet grabbing my trusty blade the one thing to give me a sense of release from the pain in my heart and the evil thoughts that are consuming my head and my brain. I roll up my sleeve seeing all my old cuts and scars. Before I can do anything Johnny starts to bang loudly on the door before I hear him grab something out of the kitchen and as she unlocks the door before opening it wide. I freeze. Oh fuck Johnny just learned about my deepest darkest secret. I never wanted him to learn about this. The only people who even know about it are Kylie and Ruby. I can't help but close my eyes. Is Johnny gonna tell Blake and Ryan? What is gonna happen between Johnny and I now? How will Blake and Ryan react if Johnny tells them?