Not My Body [} Iwaoi {]

[} 34 {]

Holy fucking shit.

"Oh, and I also want to know... Are your problems about Temari ?" My friend interrogated. 

"No..." I replied.

"So... I wanna know what are your problems."

I started to hyperventilate a little. 

"Uh.. Is it THAT important...?" I tried to avoid the subject. 

"Oikawa. You were literally naked. In my bed. While Yuka was supposed to be here, though."

I started to take deep breathes. 

"You won't believe m-.."

"Stop searching excuses. Just tell me, I swear I'll trust you." 

I'm gonna regret that.. 

Perhaps it was because of tiredness, but I spoke, shaking. 

"Well... We'll start with that... 
 One day, I woke up in a body which was not mine. Stressed at first, I didn't go to school. Only when I felt ready, I went. But teachers prevented me to assist their class and students were judging me. So I was forced to skip classes."

I paused. Iwaizumi was staring me, listening carefully, but it didn't look like he was believing me. 

"Then.. I met up with a friend. A really good friend of mine. Only we had a argue and he... Kind of rejected me. That friend began to flirt with me in the other form, and I didn't know what to do, so I entered fastly in their game. I thought it was my last chance to can hang out with them. I transformed back several times in 'Tooru's skin' and decided to not skip lessons. But everyone judged me, and I could feel it." 

I stopped for the second time. Now, my childhood best friend wore a confused expression. 

"...But I was back in the unknown body rapidly. It changed when I slept. Then... I needed to find a job because my dad was not at home... But I was still in that damn form. I then became... The beloved of the friend I mentioned. We even had sex, but it was the feature which transformed me in my real body..."

I noticed the male in front of me was breathing heavily.

"Oikawa..." It seemed as he was containing a lot of anger. "You're to vaste. I don't care about these damn details. Go straight to the point." 

"Okay... So in conclusion, I'm the Yuka you know, and she was in fact my mother who died right after giving birth to me. I don't know how all this shit is possible, haha..." I tried to calm the choking atmosphere. 

Hajime was watching an invisible point, focused in his thoughts. 

"You're lying.." He muttered. 

"I said it. You don't believe me, and that's better." I declared. 

"Milk bread... Iwa-chan... The 'guess who' thing..." My best friend listed. 

"No, no, no... Forget about this, really."

He... He's gonna kill me, right ? 

"Why. Did you. Fucking. Lied." He articulated in an agressive manner. 

"I said you would not tr-..." 

"No, no. Why did you invent a roleplay ? Why have you flirted with me ? Why.... WHY DID YOU AGREE TO HAVE SEX WITH ME !?" He shouted. 

My orbs became teary. 

"Shhhut... Y-you're gonna wa-wake up Tema-mari.." I stuttered. 

My friend was going insane. 

"I don't care ! You.. You fucking played with me ! With my feelings !! WHY !?"

I was now crying for good. 

"When you said... You didn't want to be my friend anymore. I thought... I'll never talk to you again..." I managed to say. 

"Was that a reason to play with me !? WE ARGUE WITH EACH OTHER EVERY FUCKING TIME !" 

Even if Iwa was used to show his upset side, I had NEVER seen him in that state.

"'Know what ? I don't believe you. Even if there are a lot of proves... You're lying. " 

The man eyed at a frame. Temari and I decided to let it here, like this we could see our mom every days. He precipitated himself toward it, and grabbed it. 

"Fuck, it's exactly Yuka.." He whispered. 

I noticed he was shaking, and he began to sob as me. 

"I had slept with my fucking best friend.." He articulated under his breath, desperately. 

I stayed silent. 

"If you're gay.. YOU JUST NEEDED TO SAY IT !" 

Water was flowing and flowing out my eyes, it didn't want to stop. My vision was so now very blurry. 

"I am supposed to be your best friend, right ? So why ? WHY DID YOU LIE LIKE THIS !" He gripped the side of my shoulders and was jerking me. 

"I-I-I... I s-sai-id i-it !" I cried. 

"No.. It's not normal... WHAT'S WRONG WITH Y-..." 

"DO YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW !? OKAY THEN..." I started to shout back. "I FUCKING.... FUCKING, FUCKING, FUCKING LOVE YOU ! I WAS AFRAID OF LOSING YOU AFTER THE DISPUTE, SO I BENEFITED OF THAT GIRL BODY TO SEE YOU. BUT YOU WERE NICE TO ME, THING YOU WERE NOT WITH 'TOORU' ! I felt comfortable around you like this... I HATED THIS BODY, BUT I LOVE  THE OPPORTUNITIES HE HANDLED ME !!"

Hajime was dumbfounded, I could feel it. I was still crying, and it was the only thing we could hear in the room.

"What's fucking wrong with you..?" He said, in a calmer way than me. 

I didn't answer to this. 

"So... You used that body... To do dirty things with me..?"

"What ? NO ! I COULD JUST NOT HIDE MY FEELINGS AN-..." 

"Stop fucking screaming." The spiker interrupted me, with the coldest voice ever. "I'm leaving...."
"Oh, and... This time, I'm breaking with you for real." He added. 

He slammed the door. I knew I would regret that, but I was tired of lying, especially to Iwaizumi. 
But now it was over. I was going to never talk to him again. To never see him, to never cuddle with him, to never kiss him, to never...
I was crying louder. In all of a sudden, I heard steps. 

"Uh... Tooru...?" A feminine voice called me. 

"Temari..." I turned to face her. 

She immediately hugged me, and I accidently drop some snot on her pyjamas, which were in fact mine. 

"What's happening !?" She was really concerned. 

"Do you... Do you remember what I said about friends..?" I asked. 

"Friends can argue and hurt..?" My sister repeated my past words. 

I nodded and resumed to cry. 

"Well... When th-that kind of thing happen... So-ometimes, the two fr-friends are n-not anymore.."

"Not friend anymore ? But... Why..?" 

"The most of the time, it's when one of them did a mistake. And.. In this story.. I'm the one who fucked up... Completely..." I added.