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Omg. I might literally die rn. Sabrina, the sabrina, kissed a girl! Not just any girl, Freaking JENNA ORTEGA. Idgaf if it was for a music video, it made me smile and basically go crazy. This is my new lock screen lmao. Also, just an fyi, I am not from like the west of whatever, I just say "Ya'll" a lot I guess. Im from Oregon so... Anyway. I totally wish they ended up together or whatever in the vid. I will also start the story now, but like are ya'll scared of me? Like I say "please comment guys!" and it nevvvvver happens😭😞 PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, comment!

-Sabrina-

I was laying in bed, because I needed to rest, as my agent says. I just released my new album, "Short n Sweet" and everybody loves it, apparently. I've been to countless interviews after the release, and even a really long one right before. I basically haven't gotten any sleep, and everyone keeps telling me to rest. "Really, I'm fine!" I said to my manager, Rebecca. She just rolled her eyes and told me to at least lay down for a bit. 

I unwillingly obliged, as I was scared of what she would do to me if I didn't.  I had also just before this finished filming my music video to "Taste." In the video, I basically have a full on blood war with Jenna Ortega over a guy, and we eventually kill him. She was so fun to film with, and she's such a nice person overall. 

There is a point in the video where I kiss her, and apparently all my fans are going crazy, including people who weren't even fans before. 

I pulled out my phone and went on to YouTube, where I had posted the video. People were going crazy in the comments, saying things like 'I sooo ship' or 'wasn't expecting that, but it made my day' I smiled at them and then scrolled to see hundreds of reaction videos. 

I watched a few, and in all of them people cheered when I kissed her. I laughed and shut my phone down, going back to looking at the ceiling. The fan was spinning above me, and everything else was still. I was thinking about my... well... feelings. There was definitely a reason I wanted to kiss a girl in the video. Obviously. But, I didn't say that. All I said was something like, "wouldn't it be funny if we kissed?" I liked the feeling of kissing a girl, it was so different... softer. Her lips were soft and tasted good, unlike a guys chapped lips. Although... it wasn't her I wanted to be kissing. Sure, she was nice, but she wasn't... ugh. Rowan. How am I gonna make another episode with her? 

I know, I just know that my secret is gonna come out somehow, and then i'll be ruined. People cannot, I mean there is no way, that they can know I... like girls? I mean, I also like boys, but I don't know what that makes me, bisexual? 

I groaned and ran my hands across my face, closing my eyes. "Why, why, why... fuckkkkkk."

There was a knock at my door, and I immediately sat straight up. "C-come in!"

Corey runs in and tackles me down onto the bed with a hug.

"Hi! Where did you come from, Cor?" I ask, grinning.

"I'm so happy for you Sab! 6 albums, god you're so amazing!" He gushes.

I laugh at him and we continue to talk about everything going on right now. My phone starts to buzz in the middle of our conversation about the lyrics to "Juno" (If yall wanna know what they mean, ask me, I know it!) I pick it up and he leans over to see who it is. I blush a tiny bit as I see that it's Rowan. Corey notices, damnit, and he gives me a look. 

"Sabrina?" He asks giving me a confused look, as my face gets pinker. "Yes?"

A look of realization crosses over his face, and his eyes go wide as his jaw goes slack. 

"Cor, why do you look like that? You look like an idiot." He continues to stare at me.

"W-wha, b-b-but... nahhh. Sab? ...omg, you like her. YOU ALWAYS BLUSH WHEN YOU LIKE SOMEONE. You like Rowan?" He stutters out, as my cheeks turn full on red.

I look away and say "W-what? Nooooo... it's just, it's pretty hot in here. Yeah, i'm just hot!" 

He does not look convinced and gives me a hurt look. "sab, don't lie to me. I'm literally gay! Why would I be mad or whatever bad things you think? You accepted me, i'll always do the same for you, you know that. C'mon, Ive had bsf crushes before..." 

I smiled and looked back at him. "You're right, I'm sorry for not saying anything. And yes, Ive liked Rowan since the start of gmw."

His jaw falls open again and I laugh. "WHAT!"

I giggle and tell him about how I've hid it for so long, and that I can just push it down usually, because she's not here, and I don't see her, but its getting harder. He just smiles and keeps saying that he ships us, as I roll my eyes.

We stay up late talking about my crush, and everything else too. 

Actually.

I don't know if I call it a crush anymore...

Maybe?