Maya & Carinas Daughter

Chapter 2

⚠️WARNING ⚠️
This chapter contains self-harm and attempted suicide! I will put another warning sign before hand so if you do get sensitive or your in a vulnerable place, your more than welcome to skip that part

It's been 2 weeks since Maya called you a disappointment but since then, you've gone down hill tremendously. You're struggling to eat, to sleep, to do pretty much anything. The only thing you are able to do, is go to the station cause despite wanting to be alone, you felt lonely and like you didn't have anyone but also because you've been talking to Diane. You were sitting in the lounge with Diane talking to her whilst Andy and Carina were in the kitchen.

"How have you been feeling since the last time I seen you?" Diane asked placing a hand on your leg.

"Broken... It's like, no matter how hard I try to do something, I- I just can't. I guess I really am a disappointment, not just to my mom but to everyone else" You replied with a shaky voice.

"Hey, you're not a disappointment. You understand? It's completely valid to feel what you're feeling, that does not make you a disappointment, that makes you human, the only thing that matters is that you try your best okay? Diane stated

"I do try, I promise I do but..."
You stopped.

"But what Lucia?" Diane asked

"Nothing, it's uh, it's fine" You replied turning away from her.

"Take your time, It's okay, i'll be here waiting" Diane said rubbing your back.

Maya walked out of the locker room and into the lounge.
"Wow, your in therapy?" Maya said raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah I am, is that a problem for you?"
You replied

"Maya, I don't think it's the best time right now" Diane said slowly standing up.

"What's she doing in therapy?" Maya asked crossing her arms.

"Just to talk to me about how she's feeling is all" Diane replied

Maya scoffed
"What feelings exactly? She's just a spoiled little brat who cares about no one but herself"

Andy and Carina both heard what Maya said and came into the lounge.

"I think you should go" Diane said looking at Maya

"No, im okay here. Go on talk about these 'feelings' that your feeling" Maya said leaning against the wall

"Maya, go now" Carina said slowly raising her voice

"Carina, do you ever shut up?" Maya said shouting

"Now is not the time for this" Diane said to Maya

"No, now is the perfect time for this" Maya replied

You stood up and walked towards Maya.
"You wanna know why i'm really in therapy? It is because I have spent my entire life feeling like a constant disappointment. And you want to talk about my feelings? You think I haven't got any? I have walked through fire every single day of my life because of you. That is why i'm in therapy! Because nothing I ever did was good enough " You said shouting at her.

"Who the hell do you think you're speaking to" Maya yelled in your face.

"Maya you need to calm down and leave" Diane said looking at her.

"No, im not going to calm down or leave. She never made it easy!" Maya said shouting

"I was supposed to? I was a kid" You replied as tears formed in your eyes

"Oh my god, what did you expect me to do?" Maya said shouting even louder

"Love me anyway" You said sobbing before leaving the room, Carina tried hugging you but you threw her arm off of you.