She's my way out.

Chapter Two: Try Know.

"I dont want no trouble being brought to my door."

"Iv'e changed now sis.Give me One more chance , please." i told her, only to be met by silence.

She signed trying not to catch my gaze, it wasn't long before she did though and she gave in like i knew she would"Okay, but only until you get yourself sorted."

"I love you Riell uno."

"But you always hurt the ones you love Rashad." it hurt when she said that, but i continued to walk like nothing fazed me. Seeing my nephews brought a smile to my face, they always gave me joy no matter what situation i was in, "Uncle!" Malachi screeched. I picked him up making him squeal, "Did you miss your Unc's?"
he nodded hysterically
"Mind your head dont pop arf Ghee. I missed you two doe still and your doing bits doe : You got them slits yeah, nudge me." he nudged me before i put him down, my attention on Jace now, I picked up a Minnie me , i love both of these two, i never wanted them to grow up and face the world, especially the one we live in, i wanted them to stay like this forever, but that weren't reality was it? I grinned at both of their dimples that emerged as i made them laugh and giggle, the same where mine are if you had the chance to see me smile. "Come Mali i need to get you to School, and Jace to nursery" My twin sisters voice trailed through the hallway. She walked into the livingroom and smiled as she watched me play with my nephews, she frowned whilst walking closer "You smell of weed." With that, she took Jace from me and gave me a weird look "I already made it clear Rashad"
"okay, alright, it will be gone by the time your back"
"Its always a never ending cycle with you Shad." she mumbled, i decided to ignore her choice of comment avoiding friction, i love my sister and everythings always been irie with her at the end of the day.

"Do you want me to drop you lot?" i offered , laying back into the sofa, true say i wanted to bill a fat spilff right about now, but this one was gonna start moaning.

"Do you remember what happened the last time i got in a car with you?"

"How have i gotta show you that ive changed sis?"

"Get a job , a proper job."Riell suggested in the process of zipping up Jace's jacket and looking right back at me.

"You know i cant do that."

"Why not?" she asked shaking her head

"Who's going to want to employ a-"

"Okay alright i understand- not in front of the youtes dem,You two say bye to Uncle Shad."
"Bye Uncle Shad!" they recited bringing a smile to my face.

"Uncle will you still be here when we are back?"
"Course Mali, im here to stay this time." And that's for true.

Ask any man bout me, Reepz, oh so gully. That guy you don't want to fuck with, That guy from Somerleyton, Brixton. Light-skin Gyaldem Glucose, yeah there is still some of them about you know after stormz made darkskin sexy again, Try know. i stepped out of the yard needing some fresh air, i like it when i got the herbs running through me and the breeze hitting my face, i got a birds eyed view from out ere, fuck London eye Somerleyton is the shit. See all the mandem, all the youtes dem, mothers, everyone in the struggle, This is where it all started for me, a bummy seven year old right about Malachi's age, being passed around pillar to post with my twin sister from different foster homes to a next, i remember seeing my olders and thinking, i need to get my money up like these guys, fam you see these ends here, is where it all began you know, trust me, Little kids running riot, Try know. First coming up i was the younger, the one with the crackhead mum. Eventually i became the holder by the time i was nine running round with Shanks, flicky's, guns in my school bag, not forgetting the weed, ami, cheese, haze, all types of shit, i was your go to boy the reliable one out of the Yg's that is when i got into shottin the hard core stuff, my first offence was when i was eleven by now i werent attending school, just sofa suffering as they split me up with Riell i didn't want to be in a care home, the only reason why i really stayed was because of her anyway. A Sofa became all i known when it came to night time but i weren't complaining by now i had all the shit i wanted, my first offense was at eleven, doing my own ting shottin to survive, certain man took my height as a joke being eleven and used this as an opportunity to bump me, when i questioned man on it, he brought out a flicky, i brought out mine too, looking back at it, it was stupid, i stabbed a youte savage when i could of dipped him and left, but when your on this road ting, tryna get your name up, you dont think like that, you want your first dippin to be the ting, you wanna be that guy. i was sent to YOT, and it seemed liked i spent my whole childhood with them, but im not tryna tell yous my whole lifestyle, if you knew well you knew i wasn't going to my sister, so you'll see.

"Reepz!" Approaching me right now was Dimz, i took in the changes that happened within the couple years i aint seen of him. "Long time!" he said making me chuckle, Longtime? On a real, prison opens your eye's shows you who your true bredda's are from fakes, "Fresh home yeah-"
"I been back for couple days now, but even then you didnt come check for man, your day one?"
"You know, i just been a bit busy and that" he mumbled "Taylor had the youte and that- and it was like Cakey died, and my marj-"
"You dun told me your life story." i chuckled "But dese times im not gonna stress over that, its a minor its a minor."
"This is why your my bredda-"
"I aint gonna stress on fake people, Cah all you man ever do for me is fuck shit up init? Try know what ive been through, then you wanna come over smiling grinning teet like everything is casj? Narh suh."
"Ay dont chat like that Reepz, you know that's not how it is like, just hella stuff has been happening got me feeling some type of way init and i didnt wanna come and stress you out about it and that"
"Your dog died, Your girl is pregnant, but that aint got nuttin on me spending years in the cells, no visit from my bro? but thats nuttin compared to my shit init?, fuck your dog what about mans dad?"

he was lost for words stuttering as he didn't have shit to say, "Dickhead." i kissed my teeth as i walked on, Tell my old friends to delete my number, i hear you section.

"Why's a bredda looking so pissed?" Mayhem questioned me in the mist of the smoke that surrounded the room, the bando was popping today, i liked that, i liked seeing all my niggas living healthy and this is how they start to go about it. Weed was being packed up left right and center, money being counted, smoke being blown, drugs being weighed the usual. "You know when a man try make up some dumb shit cah they know their in the wrong, Ive been out couple days and certain man are already starting to fuck with levels."
"Whats you bunnin on? I dont want nun of dat." Sykes laughter filled the room, "Mans on the happy happy shit" his eye's were hazy making me think of that bar, The ami got me looking like im Chinese.
i let the smoke escape my lips before i said anything playing with my neon blue lighter on my chest "Im on that real life shit, that's what its called, i dont like being on a high, your only gonna go back down again" i dont know what i was referring to when i said that, weed or my life?

"Lowe dat chat, Your out you aint on that vibe no more. Ders a drinkup, Coldhabour lane, we gwarning?"

There were Chatter amongst
the mandem in agreement, i guess i was rolling then.