The Monroe's

Lay: Dinner Date

As Im heading home my mind is all over the place. I don't know what to do. One minute I'm really in my feelings bout Taye and what we have and the next I'm just like fuck it, its time to give it up and find myself again and do me. Its hard when you've been with someone for 3 years and have gotten to know them and grow with them, the love and memories you share are hard to let go. I just have to sleep on it because lately we haven't been on the same page or seeing much of each other so maybe me catching her cheating was our sign to let each other go or to do better for each other, I don't know.

Once I get home I just throw my purse on the couch and start stripping. I walk to the bathroom and cut the shower on then put on K Michelle's Anybody Wanna But a Heart cd. I then set my alarm for 9pm and put my phone on the charger. I really can't believe she played me like that, I just can't. I take a shower then get out and lay in my bed butt as naked holding tight a teddy bear my mom got me for Valentine's  Day this year. I close my eyes then doze off.

Dreaming
"Bae come on, I been ready" I can hear Taye yell. "OK let me grab my phone" I yell back. I hear the front door close. I pick up my phone and see that I have 2 messages from 1 from CP and 1 from Dre.
CP: aye shawty come to Miami with me next weekend.
CP: hit me when you not with your boo, aight love

I laugh cause no matter how many times I tell her I got a girl she insist its just all talk cause my body language says more when we're together.
I read the next text message.

Dre: yo ma stop playing with a nigga feelins.
This damn boy. I delete his number. Me giving him mine was a mistake, I thought he needed a personal trainer not another piece of pussy in his bed or at least that's what he said when we first meet but I guess niggas lie but shit apparently bitches do too.

The TV in the living room is still on, I cut it off as I grab my Vicky Secret duffle bag from off the couch and walk out the door. I'm so excited I finally get to chill with bae all day just us, were going to the beach. She's been working like crazy at the warehouse and has been tired when she gets off. Now she has the next 3 days off so it's all about us and I've been dying to wear my red and yellow swimsuit Reggie got me awhile ago as a gift.

The note that was left with it read:
You're body's to fine to be covered up all the time. Show some skin, swimsuits was made just for your enjoyment and my pleasure- Reggie

As I pull my key out my bag to lock the door the TV comes back on. What the fuck! As I walk closer to the TV to cut it off there's Taye and the chick with the purple hair on there talking bout being the first lesbians in the city to get married. I stand there and listen to the story. "Bae, you OK" I feel someone come from behind me and say. When I look up its CP. She kisses me. "We gone be next" she says as she grabs my hand. The doorbell rings. I go to answer it. "Who is it" they don't say anything. I open the door and it's Dre standing there. He reaches his hand out aggressively at me.

I jump up out of the bed and just stand here, as I look around. Owwe, thank God it was all a dream, I don't want Dre knowing where i stay but on the other hand I wouldn't mind being with CP. Guess that dream was my sign that I was lo key looking for. I look at the time on the cable box and it's 8pm. Since I'm up I might as well get ready.

I go into the closet and pull some clothes out, whatever I wear to this last dinner with Taye I'll wear to the club cause I dont want to have to come back home and change because I'll be tempted to stay home although I need to go out and clear my mind. As I'm going in my closet for the second time I see my acid denim dress hanging up, I grab that and a pair of my chestnut color fringe booties, its basic but its cute. I guess a few rings and a necklace will do to dress it up.

As I'm riding round the parking lot I don't see Taye's car, I finally decide to park anyway. I go inside so we can have a seat because I'm not trying to be sitting here with her waiting on a table for who knows how long.

"Table for 2 please" I tell the hostess. "Bae I already got us a table" I look up and there Taye is standing there looking good, she got a fresh edge and her hair pulled back into a puffy ponytail. I smile then something just hits me and my smile goes away. I follow her and the hostess to the table. "Where your car" I ask. "My cuzin have it, I was thinking if this went good we could go back to your place" she says. "I'll see" I say although I already know the answer is no.

We get to the table and there's a lot of red roses sitting there. See I knew this was a bad idea, shes going to try and sweet talk her way back on my good side. I sit down and put my purse beside me so she gets the point that I don't want her sitting next to me.

"Damn baby you look good" she says. "Thank you" I say dryly. "I want to start by saying sorry" "sorry that you cheated or sorry that I caught you" I ask her. She just sits there with a stupid look on her face. "That I cheated" she says. "Hmmm" the waitress comes over and takes our order, I order 3 shrimp tacos and a martini.

"So what you want to do Taye, I've never cheated on you and didn't plan on cheating" "I know babe its just that you've been busy working and so have I" "right, how else is my bills going to get paid on time and I've been working extra hard for a reason" "I know you got bills bae but so do I" she says. "Hmmm, so that's your reason to cheat, hmm ok" "no we just wasn't seeing much of each other" "and who fault is that, every day I was off I'd try and bring you lunch and spend your break with you but it was always an excuse, I should have known" "I know" she says as she hangs her head low. "so how long has this been going on Taye" I ask her. She just sits there quietly. "Hmmm, I guess you've lost track huh" I say with an attitude "no for 2 months well" "well what? And please look at me when your talking to me that's the least you can do Shauntaye" she lifts her head up, "for the past 6 months" she says.

My heart drops, I just sit back in my seat and absorb what she just told me. 6 months, 6 months wow. I'm done. "Baby I'm sorry" Taye says trying to sound sincere and sad. I drink the rest of my Martini as tears roll down my face. Wow I really can't believe this shit. "6 months" I say. She shakes her head. "Hmmm, so its more than one female" I ask. She shakes her head again.

I feel so sick right now. I go in my purse and pull out an envelope then sit it on the table, I then get up and go to the restroom. Once I get in there the tears just pour down my face. Like I said I'm not a cheater I never cheated on Taye hell the thoughts were just thoughts and it was always something bout her and I relationship that wouldn't let me but this shit hurt. I get myself together; wipe my face; make sure my lip gloss is ok and leave the restroom. "Are you ok sweetie" the waitress ask as she walks past me.

Once back to the table I go to Tayes side and give her a kiss on the lips, I then look through my purse. I find a lose twenty and place it on the table for my meal and drink. "enjoy your life Shauntaye, thanks for all the memories, I'll always love you" I say as tears start to roll down my face again as I grab the envelope and walk off. I see a couple sitting close to the bar.
"My heart got broken so hopefully you can enjoy this because I can't" I tell them. I then write my name and number on the envelope and then turn and walk out the restaurant.

I get to my car and just cry. I can't believe her. I been working my ass off for the past 6 months for her cheating ass. Hopefully that couple can enjoy our anniversary gift, a 8 day trip to London and Paris plus 3 nights in Vegas. I worked my ass off so our anniversary and her birthday was the best and this is how she repays me.

My phone rings, its Mo. I answer it boo hoo crying. I thought I was going to be ok but I'm really not.