Sander Sides The Demus Origin Story

Chapter #3

WARNING: Angst, Fluff, Remus being Remus, and Mention of Self-Harm

Janus's POV: I was only hurting myself more by not telling Remus the truth I needed to tell him. I can't keep hiding the pain anymore. I need to tell him before I make it worse than it already is. "Um Mus. I'm not okay." I said as I was letting the after just hit my back, I just turned the water off, got out of the shower, wrapped myself up with a towel, and opened the bathroom door. "Want to talk about?" Remus asked, opening his arms to me. I walked to him and rested my head against Remus's chest as he hugged me. "Not really but I think I should at this point. I might be the best option." I signed and just closed my eyes. "Want to go see Emile? Maybe they can help." I looked up at Remus." Doesn't he have his meetings with Remy today?" I was a bit confused, and I don't remember when Emile had his meetings with Remy.

Remus's POV: "He has his meeting with Remy every day at Double Dee because Remy stays with Emile." I said looking down at Janus who just looks awful. "I can give him a call but, in the meantime, you need sleep Dee you don't look so good." I was worried for Janus at this point. I don't know what is wrong. "I will try," Janus said in a tired tone and left my arms and went into the closest to change and then soon came back out and lay down on the bed pulling the covers over him. "Sleep well, Double Dee! If you need me, I will be downstairs, okay?" I said looking at Janus from the doorway receiving a nod from Janus and I left his door cracked a bit. I went downstairs and sighed and started texting Emile about Janus and scheduling an important meeting for some time today if he is available.

Janus's POV: I couldn't sleep. I know I can't, but I need to try. I could hear the TV downstairs which tells me that Remus is watching TV while he thinks I am sleeping or trying to go to sleep. I just got up from my bed, left my room, and headed downstairs, went to the couch and sat down. "Can't sleep?" Remus hugged me and pulled me close. "Mhm," I hid my face in Remus's chest listening to the background that was playing on the TV which helped me relax my body and clean my mind a bit. I don't have a lot on my mind anymore. "What did Emile say about me coming in?" I looked up at Remus. "Well, he said he was not busy today and that we can go in today if you want or tomorrow," Remus said in a calming relaxing tone and was playing with my hair since I didn't have my hat on.

Remus's POV: I was playing with Janus's hair mostly because he doesn't have his hat on which is rare to ever see Janus without his hat on. "Can we go in tomorrow?" Janus yawns before fixing the pillow on the couch and then leaning against it. "Yeah, I can tell Emile that you want to go in tomorrow." I smiled and texted Emile while I was thinking of what Janus, and I could do today. "You can find something to watch Double Dee. I am goanna make you and you a cup of coffee." I got up from the couch, stretched a bit, and walked into the kitchen. "I WANT TEA INSTEAD OF COFFEE MUS!" Janus yelled from the living room which made me giggle. "Okay!" I hollered back at Janus and was making some for myself and getting a tea bag from the jar that Janus has all the tea bags in.

Janus's POV: I was switching through channels on the TV trying to see if anything interesting was on but some far I have found nothing interesting on TV. These days there is hardly anything interesting on TV anymore or I have mostly seen a lot of everything. I groaned due to not being able to find anything to watch and I turned my head towards Remus who walked back into the living room with two coffee mugs and handed me mine before he sat down on the couch next to me taking a sip of his coffee as I did the same but I had tea instead of coffee cause personally dislike coffee to me it doesn't taste good but I will drink it time to time if I have to. I gave Remus the TV remote so he could find something for us to watch he started looking through the channels to find something for us to watch while I grabbed my phone out of my back pocket and texted Emile about what had been going on recently and when Virgil left since he was concerned about why I wanted to schedule an appointment to have a meeting with me cause he wasn't expecting me out of all the sides to want to schedule a therapy session with me.

Remus's POV: I looked over at Janus and I caught a glance of who he was messaging which was Emile and I watched him write a long text message to Emile I was reading some of it and Janus was telling Emile about what had been going on which made me smile cause I am glad that Janus doing something to try and help him get better cause I want him to get better and stop hurting himself. "You alright Dee?" I said softly looking back at the TV and selecting a movie that we have already watched but it's mine and Janus's favorite movie which is a movie called Of Mice and Men which is an ancient movie that came out in 1937 Janus even has a book version of it to which Janus has read it like 45 times and I like the author of the movie and the book I think his name was John Steinbeck. "Yeah. I am just explaining to Emile why I want to have a session with him since he asked me," he said while putting his phone down on the coffee table and taking another sip of his tea.

Janus's POV: "What movie are we watching?" I asked, putting my coffee mug down on the coffee table next to my phone. "Of Mice and Men," Remus said smiling because he knew how much I loved this movie, and I got myself comfortable on the couch looking at the TV as the movie started. "Dee, you know you got to make us breakfast too, right?" Remus said as he finished the rest of his coffee. I looked at him," Yeah but if I make breakfast now you aren't going to watch it without me, right?" I got up and stretched, popping my back in the process. "I will wait for you Dee," Remus said while smiling at me and pausing the movie. I smiled back and walked to the kitchen and started pulling things I needed out for cooking breakfast and the ingredients I needed and soon started cooking. It seemed too quiet for me, so I decided to hum while I was cooking food for me and Remus. I normally don't mind when it's weird but if it's too quiet it kind of bothers me because I think something is wrong and then it makes me anxious, and I start to panic a bit.

Remus's POV: I watched Janus Walk into the kitchen and stay on the couch with my phone while waiting for Janus to finish making us breakfast. I was reading a book on my phone yes, I read shockingly I know Janus made me read books months ago which I hate reading, but I only will read if I have nothing better to do or don't want to go annoy or bug someone because I am either not in the mood or just lazy and only for Janus. I heard humming coming from the kitchen and I got up from the couch, walked to the kitchen, stood at the doorway, and leaned against the door frame watching Janus cook and listening to Janus humming which his humming was very calm and relaxing. "What are you making there Double Dee?" I said before I started walking over to him wrapped my arms around his waist and resting my chin on his shoulder. Janus looked over at me, smiling. His smile is adorable at least to me plus it's cute seeing his little snake tongue when he blebs from time to time. Even sometimes Janus would bleep when he laughs or smiles. I don't think it is something he can't control. I know he doesn't like it when he bleeps because it embarrasses him especially when he does it in front of someone.